Valentines or hary kekasih is not only today rittE?

Yeah…valentine or hari kekasih is not only today…
Not only 1402…
Valentine is de they where every couple celebr8 it..
Sharing present…having dinner or anything else…
so ded it will leave a very sweet memories of dem..
feel being appreciated n love by lovers.
But itz actually…we can do it..
Not only ded time…anytime…
For me…
Valentines is not too important…(lgpown haram kn?)
Burfday is da most important..den anny..n raya…


Well..
As iza busy planning..making surprise to her bunny…
Finally…everything was done so great…
It was so sweet…
Some of hers bunny also help her…
Wat bout me??
Of coz…I do help her…support her…
But not for de card..
I want her to complete it all by her handmade only..
Not be help by the others…
There is nothing I describe bout dem..
Wat I know is..
Iza really3 her bunny…so do de bunny…
When I saw iza cried after she talk to da bunny
N say sumtink…
I feel like…
I already make a mistake…
But not to her of coz…
I do make a mistake to him………………….


I wanna do sumtink to him….
Juz to make him happy n remember me everytime…
Everytime I’m in love I’ll give dem sumtink ded I make it
By myself…
At least one…only a piece of paper only..

But for him..
I really can’t do anything rite now…
Last ded I did is to sufian…
But..
Wut he did really hurt me..

I gave him a card..n the other present…
N wat he did was toooo bad for me…
He tore all the card n threw it in front of my house…
I juz realy can’t accept it…
Well..if u dun like n dun want ir anymore…
Juz threw it away..
But not in front of me…
Den I pick every piece of paper n all de present ded I gave to him..
N threw it back to his nest…
He’s so stupid when he keep doing da same thing again n again..
Bodoh la engkau….
Pasal hg laa….aku xbule wat kt laki len yg lebih444 layak trima suma tue dri aku…
Pasal hg laa….dia jd mangsa…………
Aku btol3 terasa dgn ampa…
Aku taw…tulisan aku xcntik…tp at least…..
Blajaq laa hargai org…klo rsa nk dhargai..
Bkn sufian ja…tp husin pown..
Aku lukis penat3
Sekoq tedybear ,hg bule buang merata..
Ariel…
Apa aku bg suuma hg lempaq dpan umh aku.
Ampa suma bongok….
Bongok laaa…
Aku dah xley nk wat pa3 skunk,,,,
N aku rasa bsalah sgt……….
Ampa suma nie xlyk pown dihargai…
Ntty klo jd kt dri sendiri..
Pandai3 la pk…

C bongok3
Tolong jgn gnggu aku lg…
Even nk tnya kabar…
Xpyh la k….
Aku bahagia dgn idup aku skunk…
N aku harap dia or sesiapa shj..
Xbongok mcm ampa…….

Me also know as thorn??..

Dis words come across my mind during writing class with our new lecturer…
we’ve to do a process ..
so,sya was the one who choose the title for our essay..
guess wat is huh?
Its actually how to fall out of love…
Not to fall in love…
But actually it is wat we should do to avoid the love wif our bf…
Itz reminds me wat I’ve done to all of my xbf….
Usually I’m the one who ask for “break up”
Wat a very great heart breaker rite?
Yeah…
I really realize ded…
Even though ,they used to hurt me..
N do sumtink ded I hate…
So coz of ded I’ll ask for clash…
Yeah…
After I’ve got wat I want(clash)
I felt relief of coz…
Really love it…
Am I cruel?
Without giving dem four or five chance..
I’ll leave dem…
I admit ded..
There is lotz333 of bad words I’ll heard from dem..
Welll itz ok for me…
N I accept it…
Once I replied it…
They will stay quite n stop talking nonsense..
N it will makes dem realize their mistakes..
Itz fair la kn??
Jgn paku aku ja…mcm ampa tue perfect sgt…

Watz da bad thing ded I olwez do the guys is….

1)being to0 honest….
2)threat dem bad…
3)being who I am…
4) ignore him…
5)MELAWAN..(hahahha.itu la aku..)kna unuh bru pdn..
N many more….


Yeah..being to honest sumtime can hurt pepel feeling…
But for me itz relly ok…den hit me from da back..
Or I’m da one who lied him…
Doing bad thing especially being unfaithful…
I’ll never be like ded..
But..if he did..
I’ll be more worst den that…..
I really dun know how to get double or triple bf in 1 time…
Hahaha..

Actually…
Dis was a really wonderful sentence to me…
N I’ll never forget in…
Not only from him..but dem..
Even in a different way…


“efi umpama bunga mawar yg sgt cantik yg byk durinya..ramai org suka mendekati efi…tp sgt sukar utk dipetik..sekali dpt petik…cpt pula dia layu…”

“efi sgt pandai membuatkan org syg akn dirinya…ttp bla dbwt slh sekali…senang sungguh dia mencantas”

“kehadiran efi sgt meninggal kesan yg nyata…dan sgt sukar dlupakn…”

“pabila dia berkata2..dia sprt sdg high dgn dadh”

“knapa dia bijak menipu diri sendiri apatah lg org yg sygnyi dia”


N many more….

Well…
I think dis kinds of word really hurt me…
But itz ok…

Well..
Actually..aku nie bkn yg suka mengayat k….
Sbaliknya wat bg org menyampah dgn aku lg adala…
Tp apa kn daya…
N anggap aku apa pown anggap laaa..
Jnji sblom kta kt org…
Tgk diri sendiri dluww…
Cam na hampa time couple dgn aku…
Ada hampa hargai aku???
Bila aku happy dgn kwn3 aku…
Kalut lak hampa nk nilai aku…
Bila aku ada org lain..
Sng plak nk nilai aku sng brubah aty……
Yurp…aku mmg suka bkwn…
Tp aku bkn pmpuan murahan yg bleh sng4 serah dri or aty aku kat org…
Keadaan kdg3 memaksa aku untuk bercinta…
Tp aku xbule elak…



So,sapa3 nk dgn minah nie…pk la byk kli…wat istikharah dluw… jumpak tok bomoh dluw kaa….bdk neh sgt complicated…

tag lg..da latest??!!ngee...

1. 7 ciri Lelaki Idaman Anda :-
1.bertanggungjwb
2.alim...ble mmbimbing?utk33 anak3 jugak..heh3
3.berilmu..
4.matang tp muzti lawak..
5.ego..hahaha
6.bkn mat rempit n "taik obt"
7.dpt trima aku seadanya..yg tue yg pnting...idamanku?haha

2. 7 ciri Lelaki Yang Tak Pernah Anda Minati Sepanjang Hidup :
1.bangang
2.lombab
3.semayang skali sminggu(jumaat jaaa...gla kowT?)kna jmpak tok mudim neyh...adoi3..)
4.kedekut taik idung masin
5.xbtanggungjwb..
6.pentingkn diri sendiri
7.pemalas.


3. 7 Perasaan Anda Sekiranya Keluar Dengan Orang Yang anda Minati :-
1.nk terBERAK + terKENTUT
2.Nak tendang..(sbb knpe laa die yg aku minat?)
3.mlu or x maluw??nth...depend keaddan laa..
4.clumsy..
5.dup dup dup..bgetar perot ku..klparan...
6.happy..
7.busan.....(tkt jd mcm garpu cati periuk lak uh?)


4. 7 Tempat Istimewa Yang Ingin Dilawati Bersama Pasangan Anda :-
1.haji ssme..(lpza settle haji..syg2!! jum nek unta ckaly..klo tkow p tdoq!)
2.sabah n sarawak
3.new zealand
4.ausralia.
5.laut2 plng cntik d dunia..
6.itali
7.paris

*********dah sampai sini baru aku sedar aku teramek salah soalan. mintak maap la ye, malas nak delete yg dah tulis kat atas tu. Kikiki. Ni yg betul punye :-




1. How old are you?
19 masa bulan july nnty laaa..


2. Are you single?
yes3!!! but not available..


3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
23 plng muda.25 pnlg tua.27.perlukan talian hayat..



4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
dah tertulis d ruh mahfuz...ngeee~


5. If not, who do you want to marry?
ahmad dinejad...or the ownwe of choc factory..



6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?
beach!!!!..



7. Your ideal motive
different den the others...n good for photo session..
best laaaaaaaa..........

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
any island...no..no town...buhsan!bandung ok?


9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?
4gigabyte..

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
simpe but memorable n wonderful n cute n sweet... n ...
wua..fairy tale?tue klo kat garden..klo nk wat kt beach..little mermaid la eh..

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?
kidnap!

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
3 only..means ded..u,me n our family olwezs together..


13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
hotel?nope..chalet.once in our life rite..so abez dwet pn xksh jnji ada kngan..


14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
muwning...ok kowt..fresh lg..heheh


15. You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?
outdoors!hehehe..besh3..



16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride?
sure..kne laaa..hahaha

kenapa soalan tag yg aku dpt mesti hilang satu soalan eh?




18. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding
english romantic songs.
1.you're my everything..
2.kiss me...
3.spring waltz..
byk skt laaa...huk3




19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
depends la mood cam ner kn...


20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
a light one.

21. What age do you think you want to get married?
i've answered juz now.




22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
like hero from korean drama...hehehe

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
skali skala jd formal..hahaha


24. Champagne or red wine?
limau ais poen bole...ngeee...



25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days after the wedding.




26. Money or household items?
erm....x phm soklan.




27. Who will pay for the bills?
he's paying the bills n food n all stuff... n i'm paying for the ...ermmm..duit toilet..hehe..



28. Are you ready for married life?
definitely NOT!




29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
sholud have to...i'll takwe care of it..tp laki tue...muzty la teruna jugak yeeee....
adil kn?


30. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
of coz la..tp klo die bangang..saya pown akn lg bangang padanya..hahah


31. How many kids would you like to have?
2 gal..2 boyz..anak sulung pompuan ya!!!


32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
pondok tpi pntai pown bule(knaa tibai padan muka)...tp bkn pondok mcm cter pondok buruk taw..hahaha


33. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
gold la..klo laki tue baik..tp tin alumnium sudah klo bangang...hahah


34. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
more challange..mkn nasik gna senduk..eh3..x...simple sudah tp kne da choc!

35. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
muzty lerw!!!!!!!!!! tp for pvt only..di simpn d....................

36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?
-Pajid
-maya
-haries
-amri
-hasrul
-aj

tag from haries pulak...ngeee..

7 stuffs that you had interest in:
1.music
2.art
3-photographing
4.history...??incliding islam...deds da most ded i likeee..
5.wedding planner?
6-everything bout fashion,food,vacation..n many mare..
7.kids!!!!!! n baby!!!!!



7 books that you like:

1. God love Letters~ Al-Qoran Nur Karim
2.black beuty by anna sewel..
3.charmed..
4.1.2.3 i love u..(satu2nya novel melayu slaen novel academic yg efi bca!)hahah
5.frakenstein
6.lord of da ringzzz...
7.girlz tears..



7 foods that i adore right now:(masakan mak!)
1.choc...choc..chocc...ape33 yg ada choc!!!
2.cupcake.
3.laksa
4.tomyam
5.grilled salmon
6.song tam..
7.yg saya reka??hahaha

my 1st tag...hahaha from sya n pajid...

hahahaah...nsb bek tag yg sam...wuawuawua....



1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
sya n pajid???of course laa...classmate n coursemate...ngee~


2. Your impressions towards him/her.
emmm..bout sya??she is matured...n pajid xmatured!!! hahaha

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
mereka mlawat daku ktika daku trdampar di atz katel...huhuhu..pajid tawar ytmpat duduk dlm rapid..ktika daku sakit kpla...thanks ya korank!apperciate ded..

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
i can't really imagine ded..coz i know n threat dem as girl..huk3

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...
like me..as i olwez did b4..no more talk wif da enemy..unless the ask for da forgiveness..ngee~~ xley bg muka sgt laaa nty kna pjak!

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her
nothing...

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
hit me from da back! really hate ded in watever relationship..tmbh CKP3 BLAKNG..huhuhu...

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is
to make them hapy n being appericiating by me..

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
sya...she's really nice..n for the attitude..really different den me...sopan vs tdk sopan..hahah..pajid??comel n nakal..tp rajen..kn pajid kn?hehehe

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
no confident..n troublesome..realy rite?ngeee~


12. The character of you for yourself is?
being who i am whever am i..lazY??hahaha

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
too sensitive n emotional..but sumtime i lke it..ngeee...


14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
my mother!
she's so strong n caring n RAJIN MEMBACA BUKU!!!!

15. For the people who likes you, say something to them
thanks to all u guyzzz..eventhough there is anyone else dun like me...but at least i still have u guys...thanks so much...nothing i can say..hope Allah S.W.T will always blessing u...


16. 8 people to tag:
-apek
-fie
-haries
-abey
-nasiha
-boi
-haziq
-hasrul


17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
dun konw..haa..nth3 fie ada secret yea??

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
male!hehehe


19. If no. 7 and no. 8 were together, would it be a good thing?
good teammate!maybe...hahaha

20. How about no. 5 and 6?
no..no...msng3 da bpunya..loyal rite?heheh

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
how to keep urself laughing laughing untill u all sume trkentot!!!hahaha


22. Is no. 4 single?
nope....kn?kn?

23. Say something about no. 2.
fie?he's nice...he loves pink...like it..hehehe



hahaha..sttle 1 tag..ok laa kan?hehehe utk org yg tag saya tue...tnggu3..ada bnda len utk korank..hahaha

nikon coolpix in the lake...

itz was friday evening...
as i woke up from my dreamzz...
i've a call from my sis bf...
he said ded..
he need a camera n he wantz to borrow it from me..
as he is going to lbenon..
i told him ded i need da camera 4 my assignment..

i was so angry..
coz he is da one who lost da mmc before..
den...after i pray...
i called my musyuxx..
n he asked me to tasik..
n i need to buy some stuff from pas...
as we walked along the lake.
i kept telling him da story from my roomate..


than,
we Walked along the bridge..
n he asked me to stop
he said ded the scenery is so beautiful,,,
n he took his camera n i took out mine..
i told him there is no sunset..
so i won't capture any pic..
as i want to put it back in my beg..


suddenly.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

bushhhhhhhh...
itz fall into da lake..
at 1st..i just stay quiet...
n he is looking weird at me..
i told him ded..
camera jatuh....

he tried to calm me down
as i keep crying....
n he promised to me ded he'll help me...
i got no idea wif it..
as i'm really broke rite noe...
eden past by ded bridge..
n he also tried to calm me down..
but..
i still couldnt stop crying..
there is a lot of things
ded i think..
n itz really messed me up...

sunday....
there was 3 person volunteer to jump into da lake..
but........ unfortunately
they didnt dare to do it..
itz ok...
coz i dun want anybody to take da risk juz 4 ded camera...
wat they told me is true...
n i have to accept it...


everyday,
i've been there...
keeep wishing ded the camera will come back...
like athirah said if u have
to kiss a very ugly frog...
would u do it?"
i said..
definately "YES"
stupid rite???
yeah...even if i got back da camera itz already broken outt
so watz da point???!!!
yeahh...
actually ded is me when i lost something...
i just can't accept it..
really3 can't...
untill now...n maybe forever?
nobody would understand ded...
eventhough i've got da new one...
i need de old tooo.....
but..
it is imposible to get it...



so.............
efy!!!! nk xnk...
tma je la eh...



ba.......sory sgt3!!!!

i promised after i got the elaun..
i'll buy the new one..
eventhough i've to sacrifice the money..
n evreything..
elaun...cpt la msuk...huhuhuh
dqa survey kt low yat..
hope bla nk bli nnty ada stock!
amin....


kwn333!!!

doa3 sama saya ya..
n klo saya plng simple masa pgl...
itz ok la eh...
SACRIFICE..

huhuhuhuh~
sobsobsob...


cdey!!!!

='( (~_~)

the holiday is over...

by dis nyte..
i'm going back to shah alam wif hurul..
hope everything will be fine..


wat am i doinng during all dis week..during da holiday..

well...
everyday i i'd suffering those headache..migrain..
so wat can i do????
sleep...eat..sleep...
online?? yeah...
wat bout my assignment??
i juz dun settle it yet..
especially the interview..
since like....
everybody's enjoying their holiday..
shit333!!!!
huhuhu..
i'm sure all of my frenzz already settled up their assignment..
actualy i i wanna visit u maya!!!
but i can't
coz of my migrain..so my parents said"no"!!!
sory maya...
but i really3 miss u...
huhuhu


actualy..
i juz keep hiding from my parents ded..
i still suffering dis migrain...
starts from when i was in standard 6..
untill now...
but my mother notice bout it..
n keep asking me to see the doctors..
n also my musyuxxx
wat i said is!!!!!
"no!!!!!"
why??!!!
coz i dun like doctors..
they keep blaming on me...
n juz give those fucking painkiller..
ded can make me feel sleepy..
i really hate it..
brainscan??
yeah..i've done it already when i was 13
so...
rite now i won't do it..
coz i dun wanna waste my parents money at all..
juz think positive..
n fight it...
n having some fun wif my family..
goin to tasik...
n watsoever..
juz wanna fite it..


deds all i can do..


for my assignment..
i hope i can settle it..
immediately!!!

headache...migrain!!!
juz go away from my life...

takdir cinta

Artist : Rossa
Lirik Lagu : Rossa - Takdir Cinta
Rossa - Takdir Cinta

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati

yang mengalir lembut
pengusa alam
tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh

pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa
lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia

aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa
biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini

ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
oh tuhan kuburlah hatiku

the pic...n the tears...

so sTupid to cry when i Saw dis pic!!!!

efii...npa lemah sgt??!!! npa bodo sgt....
still nanges sbb dia??!!!!
sdangkn efi hapy dgn owg len...
heeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~
efy...
ingat ney..
pa2 pown efy wat..ingat...rindu or watever..
or ur feelings to him..~~~~
ded paricular will never be urs again..
remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





i was so hapy as i arrived

from shAH alam..

at first i asked my family to spend our time
at tasik jitra..
den my moms said..

its already 6...
so ded we decided to have our
dinner at rainforest
our favorite port..

i was so tired..
after taking bath n solat..
i just stared at my laptop..
since like i promised with my musyuxxx..
by midnite we'll dating here..(ym)
i really dun know y..
at 1st..
i really can't online my myspace..
i've got no problem wif it of cozz..
but..
den...
i just fight it..
n
all out of sudden..
wat am doing is..
not as usuall..
i just view "this particular person" profile..
n...
when i saw ded pic..
suddenly..
the tears just flow out....
n i start to scream like crazy...
itz just happen suddenly.
n i keep asking to myself..
why should i cry for ded fucken pic???!!!
am i so stupid....
i just feeling more n more bad at ded time..
i'm having migrain before...
n after i saw ded pic..
itz getting worse n worse...
i can't do anything at ded time...
but juz keep crying...
i felt guilty to my musyuxxx..
coz i broke my promised to him..
i'm so sory....

n
to ded particular person...
i just commented on ur pic..
ded is
have a very truly happiness...


to my musyuxxx....

reallyy sory...

warghhhh...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! skt sgt333 kpala aku.........................



dtambah lg dgn bnda ney!!!!!!!!!!!!




sktnya mata tgk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt sgt!!!!!

skt.......................................



skt lg hati ney..............




ya ALLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......

black n white fever...

12.50 a.m...
waiting here alone..
waiting for da flight...
suddenly i saw nik aziz just past in front of me..
wat is he doing here...
maybe he just come back from terengganu..
i'm hungry!!!!
but as usual..
i can't really eat..
NO APPETITE!!!!
huhuhuh~

i miss my frenzzz...
i miss da cls...
i wanna join da drama classs...
but wat can i do???
i have to go back..
to get da treatment..
for the viruse..
i dun wanna go home actually...
but my parents keep pushing me..
they tend too worry bout me...
i feel better den before..
but...
easily got tired...
n sumtimes...
i cant breath..
cough n flew
really tired n tired........
i've to go now..



ps..dear all my frenzzzz...


pls pray for me...


miss u all so much...

the daun kering....the inspiration

i just gonna right as simple as i can..
issh222..tp muzty panjang..hurmm..
but really meaningful to me..


last day
lala here..
went to faq first to check the list name..
still no there..
my musyuxx n me..
was so bengang laaa..
n my musyuxx wat muka KERING...
NGEEE..
DEN
we've been to pkns..
together wif my musyuxxx..
lala said..
"aku tngen nk bli bju2 kat cni..
tp dwet scolar xmsuk lg..
dah laa dwet KERING.."
den efy said..
"tapala bla2 nty mai laaa cni..kat shoping skali..
aku pn nga KEKERINGAN DWET..
aku nk bli bju kurung putih..
hadiah kt aku..ben10 kat husin"
tp dwet nga KERING..."
both of dem was so sad at ded time..
n keep walking around..
(sambil wat muka KERING)
hahaha
den,
lala said..
jom blk laaa..
dwet pown nga KERING..
i said ok laa..u should rest bfore u drive to kuantan..


den,
by 4 sumtin..
my sis sent me to pkns..
coz bfore i've to show her the direction
den..
after she left..
i was all alone at ded time..
i asked my musyuxx to come..
coz my sis keep worrying bout me..
den,
while waiting for him to come.
there's perfomance there..
not really interesting..
i dun know who are they(the artist)
accept ibnor reza coz they announced his name there..
wuaa..
so bored..
when they just
stand there and makes so joke..
"LAWAK KERING"
ded makes me feel like..
it better to have..
biskut KERING together wif some hot tea..
during ded rainy time..
but wat can i do..
n where can i get??
secret recipe??!!!
definately..not laaa..
den,
i just walk along the tasik ..
keep waiting for himm..
it was raining
but i really hope ded..
when he's here..
my shirt already "KERING"

when the rain stop for a while..
i decided to have a sit..
ey...buaian!!!!
ngeee..
so i just sit there n listen to my booboo..
suddenly..
two kids come to me..
buat muka KERING bole nanak buaian tue..
yeah..
i really hope ded my musyuxx can sit just beside me
n play together..
but he's late..
since like during ded time..
all couples around there keep staring at me..??
wuwuwwu..

den
i just walk n walk..
the rains come back..
i got wet!!!!
i start to feel so angry at ded time..
where is him..
yeah..i understand ded
its not his fault..
"jem pnye pasal laa"

huhuhuh
i waited him under the big tree..
n lots of daun KERING there..
n den he came
we listen to my booboo together..
i won't show my KERING face to him..
just keep hiding it..
den as usual..
merapu2..
oh my god..
ada pakcik nie plak..
jual bku doa..
bkn xskua..tp tkot..
nk bg dwet pn..
dah tngah KERING..
tp last33..tgk muka KERING dia..
bg je laa..
insyaALLAH..pasti ada hikmahnye kn..

den we walked together..
we sat under ded beutiful gazebo..
keep merepek33..
we talk about indie band..
pesawat,the padangs,ligthcraft..wat else?
ded have those funny name?
hahaah
i asked him if we have our own band..
wat would it be..
he keep merepek...

n lastly..
i said..

THE DAUN KERING!!!!!!!
since there is a lot of beutiful daun kering around us..
so ded he said..
a'ah..THE DAUN KERING..
our inspiration is..
air terjown yg xpnh dbukak spnjng kmey jln2 kat ctu..
gazebo yg cntik tue..
daun KERING yg bsepah tue..
bdk2 n pak cik yg wat muka KERING..
n saving yg dah KERING..

hahahaha


so sweet laa..
klo jd btol besh laaa..
cumel jaaa kn syg?
ngeeee.........

lala,me n my musyuxxxx...

oh my god..
staring from thursday..untill friday..
no class...but holiday..
i get so bored..
by friday..
i'm planning to vistit my frenzz..
she lives sumtin sumwhere in gombak..
since like i've nothing to do..

den..
iza called me..
she asked me to go for a movie..
so,i just follow dem n watch ded stupid movie..
yeah..
i'm so hapy at ded time..
since i was with mu musyuxxxx...
izza n kd..
aduh..xla buring sgt..
suddenly..
i just got msg from my sister
after her class she'll come to kl.
den i said..
ok la..
we met by nite..
n we've went together to gombak..
where actually we have our nap??
hahha..
of coz laaa...kna sludupp..
pnjat pgar pkai bju kurung..
ok la tue..

den..
the 2nd day..
we've been to maidin subang..
by nite..gombak again..

oh my god..
dis would a very scary experience i think..
by 1am sumtin..
on our way to shah alm.
there's 4 excident happen along the highway..
n 1 of demm..
the scariest 1..
when my sis almost hit that boy..
itz not my sis fault of course..
there is another car hit them..
n the boy fall in front of us..
i was so surprised at ded time..
i couldn't breath..
i called my moms but she did'nt answer it..
n i called my musyuxx..
n tell him bout dis..
i was so glad ded there is nothing happen to us..
eventhough at first..
all the mat rempit try to blame us...


nyway from dis to days..
i'm so hapy ..
cozz i can have a baby in my hands..
ded is farah..
iza's cousin?? ithink..
n my sis friends baby..
i was so hapy..

but..
bengang gla222 laaa.
3 kali g faq..
xde pn kputusan klas bru..
buang msa btol laa...

huhuhuh
den,
i really hope ded..there is no such thing happenn
to me or to the people ded i love..
insya-ALLAh

i dun wanna come back here..n juz wanna stay there

4 days at kem bina negara ulu sepri,rembau negeri sembilan

Wat can I get from there is…

…adventure…
…experience…
…knowledge…
…friends…


Honestly,I really enjoy myself when I was there.eventhough we have to follow all the rules,but I really enjoy it.why?it was because the activity n wat I really can feel is..i’m actually far n far away from my problems n him..yeah, I really can feel ded.i was actually glad ded,when no my baby boo(handphone) around me.so ded,I will never get any message ded really annoying from him.

But,
For the 1st dy when I was there,I kept counting when will all the stuff over.i can’t stand to hear all the words from the trainer.but,after a while I try to enjoy myself n think positive.then,we’ve been separated for 7 groups n me?hahaha..group number 5 pown bole..who are the member?itz actually haris,haziq hanafi,haziq kk,faris,syafie,watif,alya,Dinah,afiqah,maira n me…ngeeee….=_=… I LURVE MY TEAM…we’re da best rite..heheeh.. n our leader?of coz laa haris..i knew him before,but we never work out together,so the other member..i didn’t really know faris,Dinah n afiqah..but,actually when we work out together everything was great.we can actually accept n share our own opinion.so,starting from ded,whatever it is we have to stay together.haaa…our team name is MALAYSIANIZER..n we’ve our own flyer ded really meaningful..huhuhuhu.ermm…for the ‘’ceramah’’ actually really makes me wanna sleep..yeah..i knew ded..itz actually really informative..huhuhuh..for the first day no extreme activities actually…juz a simple exercise but I really can enjoy ded..errmmm…my roommates??owh..itz paid,ceyna,maryam,cuna,kai,nadzirah n kuku??i didn’t really remember their name..sorry…heee…~

For the 2nd day..
Hurm…since morning until afternoon,there was ‘’ceramah’’about wat ha?secret3..huhuhuh
Den for the LDK,our faci is en suhaimi n pn ilya..there are so nice n I like the way they train us..the way they explain to us..easy to understand..n I really glad ded they can accept our opinion.starting with ice breaking den we continue our activity..by 6 sumtink I think..actually I really cant wait for ded..wua..itz flying fox!!!!!! I love ded!!! Ngeee…
But….. I felt a lil shy3 in front of those guys…n keep wishing dd..hey guys get away from here laaaa…..huhuhuh…but,lastly I did it..nothing make me scared..but it is actually the most challenging one ded I did.compare to before..i love ded!!

3rd day…
LDK again as usual..but..for dis time..we can actually voice out our own opinion den we can discuss it together..i think its very interesting..but I realize ded,I have a vey lil knowledge about the topic we’ve been discuss compare to the others…huhuuhuu..n I felt quite ashame in front of them..n I just listen to them.n try to understand it.for the third day actually I felt a lil moody maybe coz I’m not I n a good condition n……n wat makes me feel guilty when.. watif said knape prlu pas2 kn bndera tue kt org len..
Yeah,I realize ded it was actually my fault..im the one who past it to fars after faris ask me to hold it..iz juz actually I’m afraid ded I might forget to bring it during the activity..sory everyone..haziq..forgive. me..ngeee…huhuhu
Den..after ldk,Abselling!!! I never do it before but I really wanna try it..coz I can see it itz very interesting.aas usual..keep waiting all the guys to get away from there..yeah.. I felt a lil nervous at first,but when I saw haris can do it..i really wanna do it..oh my god!!!!! I can do iT!!!! I was so happy at ded time…n feel proud to myself..ngeeeee…..really enjoy it n wanna do it again n again…nite??fun time…..ngeee…hey group 5!! We’re da best we actually win for the singing contest n dancing3…hahahaha..

4th day..last day..
A lil sad..huhuhu..but the activtity i’ve been waiting for!!!! I love ‘’kembara’’..i just feel really proud to haris coz he can do it..n dun wanna stop..he didn’t give up at all eventhough itz quite hard…my team??keep waiting for him whatever it is..
Lastly but will be continue… photography session of coz..


Nite..
Thanks babe n simba coz stay wif us till da bus come..wua!!!!!! bengang oh…bas wosak…but,luckily hurul,atirah,alya,n manage to arrive alor star by 6 sumtink..thanks god…



Wat I’m not satisfied??
Xleh tgk cicak besar!!! Xley amek gmbo time activity..huhuhuhu

1 week before eidul adha..at last.

the day that we've been waiting 4 has come!!!

hahhaha

but before ded..
lurve ded moment
"efi..xsabaq la husin nk rya..nk tgk lembu kna sembelih.."
"aik..bkn husin tkot ka?skit2 suruh ba dukung.."
"husin kesian laa..
"mna bleh ksian..nty xleh mkn dging tu..husin3 taw arkk..nty husin pon kn sembelih!!!!
"huh!! tamaw..

den the day has come..
well,by ded morninn both of dem(husin n boy my naughty brother!!) looks..humm quite relaxx laaa.

ye laa..den i come to dem..
"haaa..tataw laa..nk kna sembelih.."
lala said..hish efi ney..jgn la kata cam tue..xhabes3..dah3..husin n boy..nty dpt dwet byk woo..
"alaa..sket ja pownn..boy.nty kta men game kat cp nah..hg blnja aku taw!!
hahaha!!!!

well..coz of ded i can't follow dem..
juz wait dem..
i wonder how is it..
hahha
den,lala col..

"efi..aku otw blk dah ney..geram gla kat boy..dia tamaw wat tdy..wat mluw jaaa.mnjrit 1 klinik..dia reyau skt3..xdan wat pa lg pown dah reyau lbeh!! geram aku..
"tue laa..xbwk aku..mti laa boy ngn aku..tnggu saattt..husin?
"husin ok jaaa..owg suma tepuk tgn kat dia..dia dh dpt duit.."
"cantik! aku bleh paw dia.."
"efii...dah3..msk nsik.."
"errrrmmmmm..ok..mti laa boy ngn aku.."

"woi boy..kta naruto! tkot boleh nk sembelih hg pnya tue..!!! hahaha
tarak33..aku p ngn mama cri tmpat len kat hg.,,tnggu3..hg xkn tlepas..
hahah..efi33

den
3-12-2008
da knduri+bcaan yasin by..
hurmmm..my fmily of coz..
n kuin student...hahaha
hensem kah anda senyum begitu padaku??
hahaaha

"ooooOo..husin dpt byk duit uh?bleh r blnja efi nowh..pdn muka hg boy..xdpt cam husin..tue laa tkot sgt..
esok hari hg..tgk laaa...aku ikot gk hg gak aeh..aku nk wat video hg letak kt utube aeh..tgk laa"
boy said..EFI GILA..MAK!!!!!! TGK EFI NEY..!!!
efi said..well..hahaha.

well,ded nite i think da precious moment 4 my brother n his bestfrenzz.pian n faiz!!
hahaha.
bcoz of ded nite..
finally they become a good fren back..congrate!
well,i ask pian to come for the knduri since my mom keep asking bout him..
wah...pnt kot..dia tue nanak abg aku p amek dia..mngada btol..hish33.
tapaa..4 me i'll do anything to make sure their friendship will be fine..hahaha
well,eventhough i'm tired ded nite..but i still glad ded..
n i hope one day my dad can accept him back..hope so..
bout me?? i dun know..
i just keep thinking ded itz ok..if me n him break up forever..
but...
not his friendship with my brother n dad would end juz like ded
yeah..i felt guilty for ded....
they had been a good fren for a long time.
sumtime i think ded..
pian is like our family..
but..
now everything is different.
n i really hope ded..
1 day..
everything will be as usual..
eventhough not me n him..
itz ok..
i dun mind laa..


hahaha
4-12-2008
ey..i woke up so early today..
coz i decided to follow demm.
"boy..hg kna gak nah bsunat..
tlng laa...nty hg tua..lg skt..
"aduh..lala..lmanya tnggu giliran.aku lapaq laa.
jom p kdai sblh.."

den
when lala n i come back to de clinic..
hye..mna mak n suma?
suddenly.. iheard boy scream..
hahaha
he said..tlng3333!!!
hahaha
i entered the room n help da doctor,my moms da nurse.my brother,my sis..
to control my brother...
hahaha..
at 1st..i juz laugh n laugh..
but suddenly..
i felt like..
oh my god..
pening22..nk muntah..
the nurse said..
hyeh..pucat muka da tue..bsuh kaeh.
yeah..maw xjdi cam tue..
i'm PARANOID TO DED THING LAAA."

but,
i still glad ded..
that is da 1st time i saw the process..
i mean
"bersunat"
hahahaha..
guyzzzz..jgn malu..

ngeee...
^_^

i wanna watch dis!!!

Bella Swan has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen, a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for -- a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires -- James, Laurent and Victoria -- come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

huhuhuhhu^_^

kamu dan kamu by agnes monica

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bila kubersama kamu dan kamu

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bila aku harus memilih
say what?
aku takkan memilih

teman tapi mesra..hahah kpd siapa ya?

Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Dimana ada dia selalu ada aku

Dia memang manis
Dan juga baik hati
Dan dia slalu ada waktu
Untuk membantuku

Namun aku bingung
Ketika dia bilang cinta
Dan dia juga katakan
Tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

Cukuplah saja berteman denganku
Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Kutak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

well..ada hikmah di sbalik kejadian itu..

errmmm
last nite..
i'm busying talking to da phone..
owh,yeah
i'm so hapy at da time..
i just on my maxis number
n i've a lot of miscol n msg..
so i decide to call them back...
i used my celcom number..
i called hakim,sayoq,alif,n
msg wif ariel..
they said that i'm proud riite now..
n they miss me??!!!!
hahahaha..
actually i also miss dem.
yeah..they all are such very nice frenzz to me..
itz ok,we keep merepek33..
hahaha
peasanan yg sama dri mreka?!
jaga pipi tombam mu!!!
hahaha



then,
i realze ded suddenly my sis cry.
yeah,as usual..
at our restaurant at ded time..
i just go n ask her wat hapen?
n den she said
ded..
efy,ku rs xcdap aty...
aku rsa sgt22..
den i just calm her down
n keep askiing him to relax..'
by 12.00
we decided to go home..
she did'n talk to me at all
n i feel sumtin strange..
her baby dun wanna stay near at her..
she just drive straight
n i ask her to stop..
she said"kaki aku kebas.."
den i called faizz..
her.....
he drive us home..
i called my moms
my sis n my bro..
they come to the car..
as my moms recite some doa to her..
n suddenly..
she shout n shout..
she lose her control..
i thinks she's hysteria..
n at ded i'm just take care of her baby..
everyone of us really panic..
n after everything is under control..
i just let her sleep..
yeahh..of cozz.
she's fainted already..


den,
today,
i woke up so late..
i was so tired..
last nigtht..
i went out to ct plaza.
hahaha..
teman ariel bli bju!!
bls jasa smalam dtg lepak kat kdai aku..
nice designs..
ariel...i've already change u!!!
hahaha

den,
by night after having dinner
my dad ask us to tesco.
shoPpING!!! ShopIng22
n i realized ded..
i was so hapy at dedz time.
yeah,
i've already"ok"
wif my dad..
i'm glad ded..

den,
he asked me to make him mushroom soup..
my sis goreng keropok..
n..
we had our supper together..
i was so happy at ded time..
then,
i called amal..
yeah..
i dun wan her to waste her credit
so i just called her..


as usual..
online!!!
ym wif.....




sleapas kejadian tue..
aku kmbali pda kluargaku..
ada hikmah di sblik kjadian itu..

erkk..
hikmah?
my sis name..
da victim..
hahaha

nobody's home... by avril lavigne..

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah