the pic...n the tears...

so sTupid to cry when i Saw dis pic!!!!

efii...npa lemah sgt??!!! npa bodo sgt....
still nanges sbb dia??!!!!
sdangkn efi hapy dgn owg len...
heeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~
efy...
ingat ney..
pa2 pown efy wat..ingat...rindu or watever..
or ur feelings to him..~~~~
ded paricular will never be urs again..
remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





i was so hapy as i arrived

from shAH alam..

at first i asked my family to spend our time
at tasik jitra..
den my moms said..

its already 6...
so ded we decided to have our
dinner at rainforest
our favorite port..

i was so tired..
after taking bath n solat..
i just stared at my laptop..
since like i promised with my musyuxxx..
by midnite we'll dating here..(ym)
i really dun know y..
at 1st..
i really can't online my myspace..
i've got no problem wif it of cozz..
but..
den...
i just fight it..
n
all out of sudden..
wat am doing is..
not as usuall..
i just view "this particular person" profile..
n...
when i saw ded pic..
suddenly..
the tears just flow out....
n i start to scream like crazy...
itz just happen suddenly.
n i keep asking to myself..
why should i cry for ded fucken pic???!!!
am i so stupid....
i just feeling more n more bad at ded time..
i'm having migrain before...
n after i saw ded pic..
itz getting worse n worse...
i can't do anything at ded time...
but juz keep crying...
i felt guilty to my musyuxxx..
coz i broke my promised to him..
i'm so sory....

n
to ded particular person...
i just commented on ur pic..
ded is
have a very truly happiness...


to my musyuxxx....

reallyy sory...

warghhhh...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! skt sgt333 kpala aku.........................



dtambah lg dgn bnda ney!!!!!!!!!!!!




sktnya mata tgk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt sgt!!!!!

skt.......................................



skt lg hati ney..............




ya ALLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......

black n white fever...

12.50 a.m...
waiting here alone..
waiting for da flight...
suddenly i saw nik aziz just past in front of me..
wat is he doing here...
maybe he just come back from terengganu..
i'm hungry!!!!
but as usual..
i can't really eat..
NO APPETITE!!!!
huhuhuh~

i miss my frenzzz...
i miss da cls...
i wanna join da drama classs...
but wat can i do???
i have to go back..
to get da treatment..
for the viruse..
i dun wanna go home actually...
but my parents keep pushing me..
they tend too worry bout me...
i feel better den before..
but...
easily got tired...
n sumtimes...
i cant breath..
cough n flew
really tired n tired........
i've to go now..



ps..dear all my frenzzzz...


pls pray for me...


miss u all so much...

the daun kering....the inspiration

i just gonna right as simple as i can..
issh222..tp muzty panjang..hurmm..
but really meaningful to me..


last day
lala here..
went to faq first to check the list name..
still no there..
my musyuxx n me..
was so bengang laaa..
n my musyuxx wat muka KERING...
NGEEE..
DEN
we've been to pkns..
together wif my musyuxxx..
lala said..
"aku tngen nk bli bju2 kat cni..
tp dwet scolar xmsuk lg..
dah laa dwet KERING.."
den efy said..
"tapala bla2 nty mai laaa cni..kat shoping skali..
aku pn nga KEKERINGAN DWET..
aku nk bli bju kurung putih..
hadiah kt aku..ben10 kat husin"
tp dwet nga KERING..."
both of dem was so sad at ded time..
n keep walking around..
(sambil wat muka KERING)
hahaha
den,
lala said..
jom blk laaa..
dwet pown nga KERING..
i said ok laa..u should rest bfore u drive to kuantan..


den,
by 4 sumtin..
my sis sent me to pkns..
coz bfore i've to show her the direction
den..
after she left..
i was all alone at ded time..
i asked my musyuxx to come..
coz my sis keep worrying bout me..
den,
while waiting for him to come.
there's perfomance there..
not really interesting..
i dun know who are they(the artist)
accept ibnor reza coz they announced his name there..
wuaa..
so bored..
when they just
stand there and makes so joke..
"LAWAK KERING"
ded makes me feel like..
it better to have..
biskut KERING together wif some hot tea..
during ded rainy time..
but wat can i do..
n where can i get??
secret recipe??!!!
definately..not laaa..
den,
i just walk along the tasik ..
keep waiting for himm..
it was raining
but i really hope ded..
when he's here..
my shirt already "KERING"

when the rain stop for a while..
i decided to have a sit..
ey...buaian!!!!
ngeee..
so i just sit there n listen to my booboo..
suddenly..
two kids come to me..
buat muka KERING bole nanak buaian tue..
yeah..
i really hope ded my musyuxx can sit just beside me
n play together..
but he's late..
since like during ded time..
all couples around there keep staring at me..??
wuwuwwu..

den
i just walk n walk..
the rains come back..
i got wet!!!!
i start to feel so angry at ded time..
where is him..
yeah..i understand ded
its not his fault..
"jem pnye pasal laa"

huhuhuh
i waited him under the big tree..
n lots of daun KERING there..
n den he came
we listen to my booboo together..
i won't show my KERING face to him..
just keep hiding it..
den as usual..
merapu2..
oh my god..
ada pakcik nie plak..
jual bku doa..
bkn xskua..tp tkot..
nk bg dwet pn..
dah tngah KERING..
tp last33..tgk muka KERING dia..
bg je laa..
insyaALLAH..pasti ada hikmahnye kn..

den we walked together..
we sat under ded beutiful gazebo..
keep merepek33..
we talk about indie band..
pesawat,the padangs,ligthcraft..wat else?
ded have those funny name?
hahaah
i asked him if we have our own band..
wat would it be..
he keep merepek...

n lastly..
i said..

THE DAUN KERING!!!!!!!
since there is a lot of beutiful daun kering around us..
so ded he said..
a'ah..THE DAUN KERING..
our inspiration is..
air terjown yg xpnh dbukak spnjng kmey jln2 kat ctu..
gazebo yg cntik tue..
daun KERING yg bsepah tue..
bdk2 n pak cik yg wat muka KERING..
n saving yg dah KERING..

hahahaha


so sweet laa..
klo jd btol besh laaa..
cumel jaaa kn syg?
ngeeee.........

lala,me n my musyuxxxx...

oh my god..
staring from thursday..untill friday..
no class...but holiday..
i get so bored..
by friday..
i'm planning to vistit my frenzz..
she lives sumtin sumwhere in gombak..
since like i've nothing to do..

den..
iza called me..
she asked me to go for a movie..
so,i just follow dem n watch ded stupid movie..
yeah..
i'm so hapy at ded time..
since i was with mu musyuxxxx...
izza n kd..
aduh..xla buring sgt..
suddenly..
i just got msg from my sister
after her class she'll come to kl.
den i said..
ok la..
we met by nite..
n we've went together to gombak..
where actually we have our nap??
hahha..
of coz laaa...kna sludupp..
pnjat pgar pkai bju kurung..
ok la tue..

den..
the 2nd day..
we've been to maidin subang..
by nite..gombak again..

oh my god..
dis would a very scary experience i think..
by 1am sumtin..
on our way to shah alm.
there's 4 excident happen along the highway..
n 1 of demm..
the scariest 1..
when my sis almost hit that boy..
itz not my sis fault of course..
there is another car hit them..
n the boy fall in front of us..
i was so surprised at ded time..
i couldn't breath..
i called my moms but she did'nt answer it..
n i called my musyuxx..
n tell him bout dis..
i was so glad ded there is nothing happen to us..
eventhough at first..
all the mat rempit try to blame us...


nyway from dis to days..
i'm so hapy ..
cozz i can have a baby in my hands..
ded is farah..
iza's cousin?? ithink..
n my sis friends baby..
i was so hapy..

but..
bengang gla222 laaa.
3 kali g faq..
xde pn kputusan klas bru..
buang msa btol laa...

huhuhuh
den,
i really hope ded..there is no such thing happenn
to me or to the people ded i love..
insya-ALLAh

i dun wanna come back here..n juz wanna stay there

4 days at kem bina negara ulu sepri,rembau negeri sembilan

Wat can I get from there is…

…adventure…
…experience…
…knowledge…
…friends…


Honestly,I really enjoy myself when I was there.eventhough we have to follow all the rules,but I really enjoy it.why?it was because the activity n wat I really can feel is..i’m actually far n far away from my problems n him..yeah, I really can feel ded.i was actually glad ded,when no my baby boo(handphone) around me.so ded,I will never get any message ded really annoying from him.

But,
For the 1st dy when I was there,I kept counting when will all the stuff over.i can’t stand to hear all the words from the trainer.but,after a while I try to enjoy myself n think positive.then,we’ve been separated for 7 groups n me?hahaha..group number 5 pown bole..who are the member?itz actually haris,haziq hanafi,haziq kk,faris,syafie,watif,alya,Dinah,afiqah,maira n me…ngeeee….=_=… I LURVE MY TEAM…we’re da best rite..heheeh.. n our leader?of coz laa haris..i knew him before,but we never work out together,so the other member..i didn’t really know faris,Dinah n afiqah..but,actually when we work out together everything was great.we can actually accept n share our own opinion.so,starting from ded,whatever it is we have to stay together.haaa…our team name is MALAYSIANIZER..n we’ve our own flyer ded really meaningful..huhuhuhu.ermm…for the ‘’ceramah’’ actually really makes me wanna sleep..yeah..i knew ded..itz actually really informative..huhuhuh..for the first day no extreme activities actually…juz a simple exercise but I really can enjoy ded..errmmm…my roommates??owh..itz paid,ceyna,maryam,cuna,kai,nadzirah n kuku??i didn’t really remember their name..sorry…heee…~

For the 2nd day..
Hurm…since morning until afternoon,there was ‘’ceramah’’about wat ha?secret3..huhuhuh
Den for the LDK,our faci is en suhaimi n pn ilya..there are so nice n I like the way they train us..the way they explain to us..easy to understand..n I really glad ded they can accept our opinion.starting with ice breaking den we continue our activity..by 6 sumtink I think..actually I really cant wait for ded..wua..itz flying fox!!!!!! I love ded!!! Ngeee…
But….. I felt a lil shy3 in front of those guys…n keep wishing dd..hey guys get away from here laaaa…..huhuhuh…but,lastly I did it..nothing make me scared..but it is actually the most challenging one ded I did.compare to before..i love ded!!

3rd day…
LDK again as usual..but..for dis time..we can actually voice out our own opinion den we can discuss it together..i think its very interesting..but I realize ded,I have a vey lil knowledge about the topic we’ve been discuss compare to the others…huhuuhuu..n I felt quite ashame in front of them..n I just listen to them.n try to understand it.for the third day actually I felt a lil moody maybe coz I’m not I n a good condition n……n wat makes me feel guilty when.. watif said knape prlu pas2 kn bndera tue kt org len..
Yeah,I realize ded it was actually my fault..im the one who past it to fars after faris ask me to hold it..iz juz actually I’m afraid ded I might forget to bring it during the activity..sory everyone..haziq..forgive. me..ngeee…huhuhu
Den..after ldk,Abselling!!! I never do it before but I really wanna try it..coz I can see it itz very interesting.aas usual..keep waiting all the guys to get away from there..yeah.. I felt a lil nervous at first,but when I saw haris can do it..i really wanna do it..oh my god!!!!! I can do iT!!!! I was so happy at ded time…n feel proud to myself..ngeeeee…..really enjoy it n wanna do it again n again…nite??fun time…..ngeee…hey group 5!! We’re da best we actually win for the singing contest n dancing3…hahahaha..

4th day..last day..
A lil sad..huhuhu..but the activtity i’ve been waiting for!!!! I love ‘’kembara’’..i just feel really proud to haris coz he can do it..n dun wanna stop..he didn’t give up at all eventhough itz quite hard…my team??keep waiting for him whatever it is..
Lastly but will be continue… photography session of coz..


Nite..
Thanks babe n simba coz stay wif us till da bus come..wua!!!!!! bengang oh…bas wosak…but,luckily hurul,atirah,alya,n manage to arrive alor star by 6 sumtink..thanks god…



Wat I’m not satisfied??
Xleh tgk cicak besar!!! Xley amek gmbo time activity..huhuhuhu

1 week before eidul adha..at last.

the day that we've been waiting 4 has come!!!

hahhaha

but before ded..
lurve ded moment
"efi..xsabaq la husin nk rya..nk tgk lembu kna sembelih.."
"aik..bkn husin tkot ka?skit2 suruh ba dukung.."
"husin kesian laa..
"mna bleh ksian..nty xleh mkn dging tu..husin3 taw arkk..nty husin pon kn sembelih!!!!
"huh!! tamaw..

den the day has come..
well,by ded morninn both of dem(husin n boy my naughty brother!!) looks..humm quite relaxx laaa.

ye laa..den i come to dem..
"haaa..tataw laa..nk kna sembelih.."
lala said..hish efi ney..jgn la kata cam tue..xhabes3..dah3..husin n boy..nty dpt dwet byk woo..
"alaa..sket ja pownn..boy.nty kta men game kat cp nah..hg blnja aku taw!!
hahaha!!!!

well..coz of ded i can't follow dem..
juz wait dem..
i wonder how is it..
hahha
den,lala col..

"efi..aku otw blk dah ney..geram gla kat boy..dia tamaw wat tdy..wat mluw jaaa.mnjrit 1 klinik..dia reyau skt3..xdan wat pa lg pown dah reyau lbeh!! geram aku..
"tue laa..xbwk aku..mti laa boy ngn aku..tnggu saattt..husin?
"husin ok jaaa..owg suma tepuk tgn kat dia..dia dh dpt duit.."
"cantik! aku bleh paw dia.."
"efii...dah3..msk nsik.."
"errrrmmmmm..ok..mti laa boy ngn aku.."

"woi boy..kta naruto! tkot boleh nk sembelih hg pnya tue..!!! hahaha
tarak33..aku p ngn mama cri tmpat len kat hg.,,tnggu3..hg xkn tlepas..
hahah..efi33

den
3-12-2008
da knduri+bcaan yasin by..
hurmmm..my fmily of coz..
n kuin student...hahaha
hensem kah anda senyum begitu padaku??
hahaaha

"ooooOo..husin dpt byk duit uh?bleh r blnja efi nowh..pdn muka hg boy..xdpt cam husin..tue laa tkot sgt..
esok hari hg..tgk laaa...aku ikot gk hg gak aeh..aku nk wat video hg letak kt utube aeh..tgk laa"
boy said..EFI GILA..MAK!!!!!! TGK EFI NEY..!!!
efi said..well..hahaha.

well,ded nite i think da precious moment 4 my brother n his bestfrenzz.pian n faiz!!
hahaha.
bcoz of ded nite..
finally they become a good fren back..congrate!
well,i ask pian to come for the knduri since my mom keep asking bout him..
wah...pnt kot..dia tue nanak abg aku p amek dia..mngada btol..hish33.
tapaa..4 me i'll do anything to make sure their friendship will be fine..hahaha
well,eventhough i'm tired ded nite..but i still glad ded..
n i hope one day my dad can accept him back..hope so..
bout me?? i dun know..
i just keep thinking ded itz ok..if me n him break up forever..
but...
not his friendship with my brother n dad would end juz like ded
yeah..i felt guilty for ded....
they had been a good fren for a long time.
sumtime i think ded..
pian is like our family..
but..
now everything is different.
n i really hope ded..
1 day..
everything will be as usual..
eventhough not me n him..
itz ok..
i dun mind laa..


hahaha
4-12-2008
ey..i woke up so early today..
coz i decided to follow demm.
"boy..hg kna gak nah bsunat..
tlng laa...nty hg tua..lg skt..
"aduh..lala..lmanya tnggu giliran.aku lapaq laa.
jom p kdai sblh.."

den
when lala n i come back to de clinic..
hye..mna mak n suma?
suddenly.. iheard boy scream..
hahaha
he said..tlng3333!!!
hahaha
i entered the room n help da doctor,my moms da nurse.my brother,my sis..
to control my brother...
hahaha..
at 1st..i juz laugh n laugh..
but suddenly..
i felt like..
oh my god..
pening22..nk muntah..
the nurse said..
hyeh..pucat muka da tue..bsuh kaeh.
yeah..maw xjdi cam tue..
i'm PARANOID TO DED THING LAAA."

but,
i still glad ded..
that is da 1st time i saw the process..
i mean
"bersunat"
hahahaha..
guyzzzz..jgn malu..

ngeee...
^_^