i dun wanna come back here..n juz wanna stay there

4 days at kem bina negara ulu sepri,rembau negeri sembilan

Wat can I get from there is…

…adventure…
…experience…
…knowledge…
…friends…


Honestly,I really enjoy myself when I was there.eventhough we have to follow all the rules,but I really enjoy it.why?it was because the activity n wat I really can feel is..i’m actually far n far away from my problems n him..yeah, I really can feel ded.i was actually glad ded,when no my baby boo(handphone) around me.so ded,I will never get any message ded really annoying from him.

But,
For the 1st dy when I was there,I kept counting when will all the stuff over.i can’t stand to hear all the words from the trainer.but,after a while I try to enjoy myself n think positive.then,we’ve been separated for 7 groups n me?hahaha..group number 5 pown bole..who are the member?itz actually haris,haziq hanafi,haziq kk,faris,syafie,watif,alya,Dinah,afiqah,maira n me…ngeeee….=_=… I LURVE MY TEAM…we’re da best rite..heheeh.. n our leader?of coz laa haris..i knew him before,but we never work out together,so the other member..i didn’t really know faris,Dinah n afiqah..but,actually when we work out together everything was great.we can actually accept n share our own opinion.so,starting from ded,whatever it is we have to stay together.haaa…our team name is MALAYSIANIZER..n we’ve our own flyer ded really meaningful..huhuhuhu.ermm…for the ‘’ceramah’’ actually really makes me wanna sleep..yeah..i knew ded..itz actually really informative..huhuhuh..for the first day no extreme activities actually…juz a simple exercise but I really can enjoy ded..errmmm…my roommates??owh..itz paid,ceyna,maryam,cuna,kai,nadzirah n kuku??i didn’t really remember their name..sorry…heee…~

For the 2nd day..
Hurm…since morning until afternoon,there was ‘’ceramah’’about wat ha?secret3..huhuhuh
Den for the LDK,our faci is en suhaimi n pn ilya..there are so nice n I like the way they train us..the way they explain to us..easy to understand..n I really glad ded they can accept our opinion.starting with ice breaking den we continue our activity..by 6 sumtink I think..actually I really cant wait for ded..wua..itz flying fox!!!!!! I love ded!!! Ngeee…
But….. I felt a lil shy3 in front of those guys…n keep wishing dd..hey guys get away from here laaaa…..huhuhuh…but,lastly I did it..nothing make me scared..but it is actually the most challenging one ded I did.compare to before..i love ded!!

3rd day…
LDK again as usual..but..for dis time..we can actually voice out our own opinion den we can discuss it together..i think its very interesting..but I realize ded,I have a vey lil knowledge about the topic we’ve been discuss compare to the others…huhuuhuu..n I felt quite ashame in front of them..n I just listen to them.n try to understand it.for the third day actually I felt a lil moody maybe coz I’m not I n a good condition n……n wat makes me feel guilty when.. watif said knape prlu pas2 kn bndera tue kt org len..
Yeah,I realize ded it was actually my fault..im the one who past it to fars after faris ask me to hold it..iz juz actually I’m afraid ded I might forget to bring it during the activity..sory everyone..haziq..forgive. me..ngeee…huhuhu
Den..after ldk,Abselling!!! I never do it before but I really wanna try it..coz I can see it itz very interesting.aas usual..keep waiting all the guys to get away from there..yeah.. I felt a lil nervous at first,but when I saw haris can do it..i really wanna do it..oh my god!!!!! I can do iT!!!! I was so happy at ded time…n feel proud to myself..ngeeeee…..really enjoy it n wanna do it again n again…nite??fun time…..ngeee…hey group 5!! We’re da best we actually win for the singing contest n dancing3…hahahaha..

4th day..last day..
A lil sad..huhuhu..but the activtity i’ve been waiting for!!!! I love ‘’kembara’’..i just feel really proud to haris coz he can do it..n dun wanna stop..he didn’t give up at all eventhough itz quite hard…my team??keep waiting for him whatever it is..
Lastly but will be continue… photography session of coz..


Nite..
Thanks babe n simba coz stay wif us till da bus come..wua!!!!!! bengang oh…bas wosak…but,luckily hurul,atirah,alya,n manage to arrive alor star by 6 sumtink..thanks god…



Wat I’m not satisfied??
Xleh tgk cicak besar!!! Xley amek gmbo time activity..huhuhuhu

1 week before eidul adha..at last.

the day that we've been waiting 4 has come!!!

hahhaha

but before ded..
lurve ded moment
"efi..xsabaq la husin nk rya..nk tgk lembu kna sembelih.."
"aik..bkn husin tkot ka?skit2 suruh ba dukung.."
"husin kesian laa..
"mna bleh ksian..nty xleh mkn dging tu..husin3 taw arkk..nty husin pon kn sembelih!!!!
"huh!! tamaw..

den the day has come..
well,by ded morninn both of dem(husin n boy my naughty brother!!) looks..humm quite relaxx laaa.

ye laa..den i come to dem..
"haaa..tataw laa..nk kna sembelih.."
lala said..hish efi ney..jgn la kata cam tue..xhabes3..dah3..husin n boy..nty dpt dwet byk woo..
"alaa..sket ja pownn..boy.nty kta men game kat cp nah..hg blnja aku taw!!
hahaha!!!!

well..coz of ded i can't follow dem..
juz wait dem..
i wonder how is it..
hahha
den,lala col..

"efi..aku otw blk dah ney..geram gla kat boy..dia tamaw wat tdy..wat mluw jaaa.mnjrit 1 klinik..dia reyau skt3..xdan wat pa lg pown dah reyau lbeh!! geram aku..
"tue laa..xbwk aku..mti laa boy ngn aku..tnggu saattt..husin?
"husin ok jaaa..owg suma tepuk tgn kat dia..dia dh dpt duit.."
"cantik! aku bleh paw dia.."
"efii...dah3..msk nsik.."
"errrrmmmmm..ok..mti laa boy ngn aku.."

"woi boy..kta naruto! tkot boleh nk sembelih hg pnya tue..!!! hahaha
tarak33..aku p ngn mama cri tmpat len kat hg.,,tnggu3..hg xkn tlepas..
hahah..efi33

den
3-12-2008
da knduri+bcaan yasin by..
hurmmm..my fmily of coz..
n kuin student...hahaha
hensem kah anda senyum begitu padaku??
hahaaha

"ooooOo..husin dpt byk duit uh?bleh r blnja efi nowh..pdn muka hg boy..xdpt cam husin..tue laa tkot sgt..
esok hari hg..tgk laaa...aku ikot gk hg gak aeh..aku nk wat video hg letak kt utube aeh..tgk laa"
boy said..EFI GILA..MAK!!!!!! TGK EFI NEY..!!!
efi said..well..hahaha.

well,ded nite i think da precious moment 4 my brother n his bestfrenzz.pian n faiz!!
hahaha.
bcoz of ded nite..
finally they become a good fren back..congrate!
well,i ask pian to come for the knduri since my mom keep asking bout him..
wah...pnt kot..dia tue nanak abg aku p amek dia..mngada btol..hish33.
tapaa..4 me i'll do anything to make sure their friendship will be fine..hahaha
well,eventhough i'm tired ded nite..but i still glad ded..
n i hope one day my dad can accept him back..hope so..
bout me?? i dun know..
i just keep thinking ded itz ok..if me n him break up forever..
but...
not his friendship with my brother n dad would end juz like ded
yeah..i felt guilty for ded....
they had been a good fren for a long time.
sumtime i think ded..
pian is like our family..
but..
now everything is different.
n i really hope ded..
1 day..
everything will be as usual..
eventhough not me n him..
itz ok..
i dun mind laa..


hahaha
4-12-2008
ey..i woke up so early today..
coz i decided to follow demm.
"boy..hg kna gak nah bsunat..
tlng laa...nty hg tua..lg skt..
"aduh..lala..lmanya tnggu giliran.aku lapaq laa.
jom p kdai sblh.."

den
when lala n i come back to de clinic..
hye..mna mak n suma?
suddenly.. iheard boy scream..
hahaha
he said..tlng3333!!!
hahaha
i entered the room n help da doctor,my moms da nurse.my brother,my sis..
to control my brother...
hahaha..
at 1st..i juz laugh n laugh..
but suddenly..
i felt like..
oh my god..
pening22..nk muntah..
the nurse said..
hyeh..pucat muka da tue..bsuh kaeh.
yeah..maw xjdi cam tue..
i'm PARANOID TO DED THING LAAA."

but,
i still glad ded..
that is da 1st time i saw the process..
i mean
"bersunat"
hahahaha..
guyzzzz..jgn malu..

ngeee...
^_^

i wanna watch dis!!!

Bella Swan has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen, a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for -- a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires -- James, Laurent and Victoria -- come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

huhuhuhhu^_^

kamu dan kamu by agnes monica

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say what?
aku takkan memilih

teman tapi mesra..hahah kpd siapa ya?

Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Dimana ada dia selalu ada aku

Dia memang manis
Dan juga baik hati
Dan dia slalu ada waktu
Untuk membantuku

Namun aku bingung
Ketika dia bilang cinta
Dan dia juga katakan
Tuk ingin jadi kekasihku

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Janganlah kau meminta lebih
Kutak mungkin mencintaimu
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

Aku memang suka pada dirimu
Namun aku ada yang punya
Lebih baik kita berteman
Kita berteman saja
Teman tapi mesra

well..ada hikmah di sbalik kejadian itu..

errmmm
last nite..
i'm busying talking to da phone..
owh,yeah
i'm so hapy at da time..
i just on my maxis number
n i've a lot of miscol n msg..
so i decide to call them back...
i used my celcom number..
i called hakim,sayoq,alif,n
msg wif ariel..
they said that i'm proud riite now..
n they miss me??!!!!
hahahaha..
actually i also miss dem.
yeah..they all are such very nice frenzz to me..
itz ok,we keep merepek33..
hahaha
peasanan yg sama dri mreka?!
jaga pipi tombam mu!!!
hahaha



then,
i realze ded suddenly my sis cry.
yeah,as usual..
at our restaurant at ded time..
i just go n ask her wat hapen?
n den she said
ded..
efy,ku rs xcdap aty...
aku rsa sgt22..
den i just calm her down
n keep askiing him to relax..'
by 12.00
we decided to go home..
she did'n talk to me at all
n i feel sumtin strange..
her baby dun wanna stay near at her..
she just drive straight
n i ask her to stop..
she said"kaki aku kebas.."
den i called faizz..
her.....
he drive us home..
i called my moms
my sis n my bro..
they come to the car..
as my moms recite some doa to her..
n suddenly..
she shout n shout..
she lose her control..
i thinks she's hysteria..
n at ded i'm just take care of her baby..
everyone of us really panic..
n after everything is under control..
i just let her sleep..
yeahh..of cozz.
she's fainted already..


den,
today,
i woke up so late..
i was so tired..
last nigtht..
i went out to ct plaza.
hahaha..
teman ariel bli bju!!
bls jasa smalam dtg lepak kat kdai aku..
nice designs..
ariel...i've already change u!!!
hahaha

den,
by night after having dinner
my dad ask us to tesco.
shoPpING!!! ShopIng22
n i realized ded..
i was so hapy at dedz time.
yeah,
i've already"ok"
wif my dad..
i'm glad ded..

den,
he asked me to make him mushroom soup..
my sis goreng keropok..
n..
we had our supper together..
i was so happy at ded time..
then,
i called amal..
yeah..
i dun wan her to waste her credit
so i just called her..


as usual..
online!!!
ym wif.....




sleapas kejadian tue..
aku kmbali pda kluargaku..
ada hikmah di sblik kjadian itu..

erkk..
hikmah?
my sis name..
da victim..
hahaha

nobody's home... by avril lavigne..

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah