Monday, February 16, 2009

Valentines or hary kekasih is not only today rittE?

Yeah…valentine or hari kekasih is not only today…
Not only 1402…
Valentine is de they where every couple celebr8 it..
Sharing present…having dinner or anything else…
so ded it will leave a very sweet memories of dem..
feel being appreciated n love by lovers.
But itz actually…we can do it..
Not only ded time…anytime…
For me…
Valentines is not too important…(lgpown haram kn?)
Burfday is da most important..den anny..n raya…

As iza busy planning..making surprise to her bunny…
Finally…everything was done so great…
It was so sweet…
Some of hers bunny also help her…
Wat bout me??
Of coz…I do help her…support her…
But not for de card..
I want her to complete it all by her handmade only..
Not be help by the others…
There is nothing I describe bout dem..
Wat I know is..
Iza really3 her bunny…so do de bunny…
When I saw iza cried after she talk to da bunny
N say sumtink…
I feel like…
I already make a mistake…
But not to her of coz…
I do make a mistake to him………………….

I wanna do sumtink to him….
Juz to make him happy n remember me everytime…
Everytime I’m in love I’ll give dem sumtink ded I make it
By myself…
At least one…only a piece of paper only..

But for him..
I really can’t do anything rite now…
Last ded I did is to sufian…
Wut he did really hurt me..

I gave him a card..n the other present…
N wat he did was toooo bad for me…
He tore all the card n threw it in front of my house…
I juz realy can’t accept it…
Well..if u dun like n dun want ir anymore…
Juz threw it away..
But not in front of me…
Den I pick every piece of paper n all de present ded I gave to him..
N threw it back to his nest…
He’s so stupid when he keep doing da same thing again n again..
Bodoh la engkau….
Pasal hg laa….aku xbule wat kt laki len yg lebih444 layak trima suma tue dri aku…
Pasal hg laa….dia jd mangsa…………
Aku btol3 terasa dgn ampa…
Aku taw…tulisan aku xcntik…tp at least…..
Blajaq laa hargai org…klo rsa nk dhargai..
Bkn sufian ja…tp husin pown..
Aku lukis penat3
Sekoq tedybear ,hg bule buang merata..
Apa aku bg suuma hg lempaq dpan umh aku.
Ampa suma bongok….
Bongok laaa…
Aku dah xley nk wat pa3 skunk,,,,
N aku rasa bsalah sgt……….
Ampa suma nie xlyk pown dihargai…
Ntty klo jd kt dri sendiri..
Pandai3 la pk…

C bongok3
Tolong jgn gnggu aku lg…
Even nk tnya kabar…
Xpyh la k….
Aku bahagia dgn idup aku skunk…
N aku harap dia or sesiapa shj..
Xbongok mcm ampa…….

Me also know as thorn??..

Dis words come across my mind during writing class with our new lecturer…
we’ve to do a process ..
so,sya was the one who choose the title for our essay..
guess wat is huh?
Its actually how to fall out of love…
Not to fall in love…
But actually it is wat we should do to avoid the love wif our bf…
Itz reminds me wat I’ve done to all of my xbf….
Usually I’m the one who ask for “break up”
Wat a very great heart breaker rite?
I really realize ded…
Even though ,they used to hurt me..
N do sumtink ded I hate…
So coz of ded I’ll ask for clash…
After I’ve got wat I want(clash)
I felt relief of coz…
Really love it…
Am I cruel?
Without giving dem four or five chance..
I’ll leave dem…
I admit ded..
There is lotz333 of bad words I’ll heard from dem..
Welll itz ok for me…
N I accept it…
Once I replied it…
They will stay quite n stop talking nonsense..
N it will makes dem realize their mistakes..
Itz fair la kn??
Jgn paku aku ja…mcm ampa tue perfect sgt…

Watz da bad thing ded I olwez do the guys is….

1)being to0 honest….
2)threat dem bad…
3)being who I am…
4) ignore him…
5)MELAWAN..(hahahha.itu la aku..)kna unuh bru pdn..
N many more….

Yeah..being to honest sumtime can hurt pepel feeling…
But for me itz relly ok…den hit me from da back..
Or I’m da one who lied him…
Doing bad thing especially being unfaithful…
I’ll never be like ded..
But..if he did..
I’ll be more worst den that…..
I really dun know how to get double or triple bf in 1 time…

Dis was a really wonderful sentence to me…
N I’ll never forget in…
Not only from him..but dem..
Even in a different way…

“efi umpama bunga mawar yg sgt cantik yg byk durinya..ramai org suka mendekati efi…tp sgt sukar utk dipetik..sekali dpt petik…cpt pula dia layu…”

“efi sgt pandai membuatkan org syg akn dirinya…ttp bla dbwt slh sekali…senang sungguh dia mencantas”

“kehadiran efi sgt meninggal kesan yg nyata…dan sgt sukar dlupakn…”

“pabila dia berkata2..dia sprt sdg high dgn dadh”

“knapa dia bijak menipu diri sendiri apatah lg org yg sygnyi dia”

N many more….

I think dis kinds of word really hurt me…
But itz ok…

Actually..aku nie bkn yg suka mengayat k….
Sbaliknya wat bg org menyampah dgn aku lg adala…
Tp apa kn daya…
N anggap aku apa pown anggap laaa..
Jnji sblom kta kt org…
Tgk diri sendiri dluww…
Cam na hampa time couple dgn aku…
Ada hampa hargai aku???
Bila aku happy dgn kwn3 aku…
Kalut lak hampa nk nilai aku…
Bila aku ada org lain..
Sng plak nk nilai aku sng brubah aty……
Yurp…aku mmg suka bkwn…
Tp aku bkn pmpuan murahan yg bleh sng4 serah dri or aty aku kat org…
Keadaan kdg3 memaksa aku untuk bercinta…
Tp aku xbule elak…

So,sapa3 nk dgn minah nie…pk la byk kli…wat istikharah dluw… jumpak tok bomoh dluw kaa….bdk neh sgt complicated…

Monday, February 9, 2009

tag lg..da latest??!!ngee...

1. 7 ciri Lelaki Idaman Anda :-
2.alim...ble mmbimbing?utk33 anak3 jugak..heh3
4.matang tp muzti lawak..
6.bkn mat rempit n "taik obt"
7.dpt trima aku seadanya..yg tue yg pnting...idamanku?haha

2. 7 ciri Lelaki Yang Tak Pernah Anda Minati Sepanjang Hidup :
3.semayang skali sminggu(jumaat jaaa...gla kowT?)kna jmpak tok mudim neyh...adoi3..)
4.kedekut taik idung masin
6.pentingkn diri sendiri

3. 7 Perasaan Anda Sekiranya Keluar Dengan Orang Yang anda Minati :-
1.nk terBERAK + terKENTUT
2.Nak tendang..(sbb knpe laa die yg aku minat?)
3.mlu or x maluw??nth...depend keaddan laa..
5.dup dup dup..bgetar perot ku..klparan...
7.busan.....(tkt jd mcm garpu cati periuk lak uh?)

4. 7 Tempat Istimewa Yang Ingin Dilawati Bersama Pasangan Anda :-
1.haji ssme..(lpza settle haji..syg2!! jum nek unta ckaly..klo tkow p tdoq!)
2.sabah n sarawak zealand
5.laut2 plng cntik d dunia..

*********dah sampai sini baru aku sedar aku teramek salah soalan. mintak maap la ye, malas nak delete yg dah tulis kat atas tu. Kikiki. Ni yg betul punye :-

1. How old are you?
19 masa bulan july nnty laaa..

2. Are you single?
yes3!!! but not available..

3. At what age do you think you'll get married?
23 plng muda.25 pnlg tua.27.perlukan talian hayat..

4. Do you think you'll be marrying the person you are with now?
dah tertulis d ruh mahfuz...ngeee~

5. If not, who do you want to marry?
ahmad dinejad...or the ownwe of choc factory..

6. Do you want a garden/beach or a traditional wedding?

7. Your ideal motive
different den the others...n good for photo session..
best laaaaaaaa..........

8. Where do you plan to go on a honeymoon?
any town...buhsan!bandung ok?

9. How many guests do you think you'll invite?

10. Do you want an extravagant wedding or a simple wedding?
simpe but memorable n wonderful n cute n sweet... n ...
wua..fairy tale?tue klo kat garden..klo nk wat kt beach..little mermaid la eh..

11. Do you want the traditional vows or something you'd make up on your own?

12. How many layers of cake do you want?
3 only..means ded..u,me n our family olwezs together..

13. Do you prefer having your reception at a hotel or a simple place?
hotel?nope..chalet.once in our life abez dwet pn xksh jnji ada kngan..

14. When do you want to get married, morning or evening?
muwning...ok kowt..fresh lg..heheh

15. You'd rather have your reception outdoors or indoors?

16. Do you like a grand entrance for your bride?
sure..kne laaa..hahaha

kenapa soalan tag yg aku dpt mesti hilang satu soalan eh?

18. Name the song/tune you'd like to play at your wedding
english romantic songs.'re my everything..
2.kiss me...
3.spring waltz..
byk skt laaa...huk3

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
depends la mood cam ner kn...

20. Do you want a solemn ceremony or a light one?
a light one.

21. What age do you think you want to get married?
i've answered juz now.

22. Describe your ideal husband/wife.
like hero from korean drama...hehehe

23. Do you prefer fine dining or just the normal spoon & fork/knife?
skali skala jd formal..hahaha

24. Champagne or red wine?
limau ais poen bole...ngeee...

25. Honeymoon right after the wedding or days after the wedding?
days after the wedding.

26. Money or household items?
erm....x phm soklan.

27. Who will pay for the bills?
he's paying the bills n food n all stuff... n i'm paying for the ...ermmm..duit toilet..hehe..

28. Are you ready for married life?
definitely NOT!

29. Do you think you will still be a virgin until you get married?
sholud have to...i'll takwe care of laki tue...muzty la teruna jugak yeeee....
adil kn?

30. Will you always be true to your wife/husband?
of coz klo die bangang..saya pown akn lg bangang padanya..hahah

31. How many kids would you like to have?
2 gal..2 boyz..anak sulung pompuan ya!!!

32. A new house for a newly wed or an old one?
pondok tpi pntai pown bule(knaa tibai padan muka) bkn pondok mcm cter pondok buruk taw..hahaha

33. Will you celebrate silver wedding, gold wedding or diamond wedding?
gold la..klo laki tue tin alumnium sudah klo bangang...hahah

34. What kind of cuisine would you like for your wedding?
more challange..mkn nasik gna senduk..eh3..x...simple sudah tp kne da choc!

35. Will you record your honeymoon in a CD or DVD?
muzty lerw!!!!!!!!!! tp for pvt only..di simpn d....................

36. Whose wedding plans would you like to know next?

tag from haries pulak...ngeee..

7 stuffs that you had interest in:
4.history...??incliding islam...deds da most ded i likeee.. planner?
6-everything bout fashion,food,vacation..n many mare..!!!!!! n baby!!!!!

7 books that you like:

1. God love Letters~ Al-Qoran Nur Karim beuty by anna sewel..
3.charmed.. i love u..(satu2nya novel melayu slaen novel academic yg efi bca!)hahah
6.lord of da ringzzz...
7.girlz tears..

7 foods that i adore right now:(masakan mak!)
1.choc...choc..chocc...ape33 yg ada choc!!!
5.grilled salmon tam..
7.yg saya reka??hahaha

my 1st tag...hahaha from sya n pajid...

hahahaah...nsb bek tag yg sam...wuawuawua....

1. What is the relationship of you and him/her?
sya n pajid???of course laa...classmate n coursemate...ngee~

2. Your impressions towards him/her.
emmm..bout sya??she is matured...n pajid xmatured!!! hahaha

3. The most memorable things he/she had done for you.
mereka mlawat daku ktika daku trdampar di atz katel...huhuhu..pajid tawar ytmpat duduk dlm rapid..ktika daku sakit kpla...thanks ya korank!apperciate ded..

5. If he/she become your lover, you will..
i can't really imagine ded..coz i know n threat dem as girl..huk3

6. If he/she become your enemy, you will...
like i olwez did more talk wif da enemy..unless the ask for da forgiveness..ngee~~ xley bg muka sgt laaa nty kna pjak!

7. If he/she become your lover, he/she has to improve on his/her

8. If he/she become your enemy, the reason is...
hit me from da back! really hate ded in watever relationship..tmbh CKP3 BLAKNG..huhuhu...

9. The most desirable thing to do on him/her is
to make them hapy n being appericiating by me..

10. The overall impression of him/her is...
sya...she's really nice..n for the attitude..really different den me...sopan vs tdk sopan..hahah..pajid??comel n pajid kn?hehehe

11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
no confident..n troublesome..realy rite?ngeee~

12. The character of you for yourself is?
being who i am whever am i..lazY??hahaha

13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
too sensitive n emotional..but sumtime i lke it..ngeee...

14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
my mother!
she's so strong n caring n RAJIN MEMBACA BUKU!!!!

15. For the people who likes you, say something to them
thanks to all u guyzzz..eventhough there is anyone else dun like me...but at least i still have u guys...thanks so much...nothing i can say..hope Allah S.W.T will always blessing u...

16. 8 people to tag:

17. who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
dun konw..haa..nth3 fie ada secret yea??

18. Is no. 3 a male or a female?

19. If no. 7 and no. 8 were together, would it be a good thing?
good teammate!maybe...hahaha

20. How about no. 5 and 6? da bpunya..loyal rite?heheh

21. What is no. 1 studying about?
how to keep urself laughing laughing untill u all sume trkentot!!!hahaha

22. Is no. 4 single?

23. Say something about no. 2.
fie?he's nice...he loves it..hehehe

hahaha..sttle 1 tag..ok laa kan?hehehe utk org yg tag saya tue...tnggu3..ada bnda len utk korank..hahaha

Saturday, February 7, 2009

nikon coolpix in the lake...

itz was friday evening...
as i woke up from my dreamzz...
i've a call from my sis bf...
he said ded..
he need a camera n he wantz to borrow it from me..
as he is going to lbenon..
i told him ded i need da camera 4 my assignment..

i was so angry..
coz he is da one who lost da mmc before..
den...after i pray...
i called my musyuxx..
n he asked me to tasik..
n i need to buy some stuff from pas...
as we walked along the lake.
i kept telling him da story from my roomate..

we Walked along the bridge..
n he asked me to stop
he said ded the scenery is so beautiful,,,
n he took his camera n i took out mine..
i told him there is no sunset..
so i won't capture any pic..
as i want to put it back in my beg..


itz fall into da lake..
at 1st..i just stay quiet...
n he is looking weird at me..
i told him ded..
camera jatuh....

he tried to calm me down
as i keep crying....
n he promised to me ded he'll help me...
i got no idea wif it..
as i'm really broke rite noe...
eden past by ded bridge..
n he also tried to calm me down..
i still couldnt stop crying..
there is a lot of things
ded i think..
n itz really messed me up...

there was 3 person volunteer to jump into da lake..
but........ unfortunately
they didnt dare to do it..
itz ok...
coz i dun want anybody to take da risk juz 4 ded camera...
wat they told me is true...
n i have to accept it...

i've been there...
keeep wishing ded the camera will come back...
like athirah said if u have
to kiss a very ugly frog...
would u do it?"
i said..
definately "YES"
stupid rite???
yeah...even if i got back da camera itz already broken outt
so watz da point???!!!
actually ded is me when i lost something...
i just can't accept it..
really3 can't...
untill now...n maybe forever?
nobody would understand ded...
eventhough i've got da new one...
i need de old tooo.....
it is imposible to get it...

efy!!!! nk xnk...
tma je la eh...

ba.......sory sgt3!!!!

i promised after i got the elaun..
i'll buy the new one..
eventhough i've to sacrifice the money..
n evreything..
elaun...cpt la msuk...huhuhuh
dqa survey kt low yat..
hope bla nk bli nnty ada stock!


doa3 sama saya ya..
n klo saya plng simple masa pgl...
itz ok la eh...



='( (~_~)

Saturday, January 31, 2009

the holiday is over...

by dis nyte..
i'm going back to shah alam wif hurul..
hope everything will be fine..

wat am i doinng during all dis week..during da holiday..

everyday i i'd suffering those headache..migrain..
so wat can i do????
online?? yeah...
wat bout my assignment??
i juz dun settle it yet..
especially the interview..
since like....
everybody's enjoying their holiday..
i'm sure all of my frenzz already settled up their assignment..
actualy i i wanna visit u maya!!!
but i can't
coz of my my parents said"no"!!!
sory maya...
but i really3 miss u...

i juz keep hiding from my parents ded..
i still suffering dis migrain...
starts from when i was in standard 6..
untill now...
but my mother notice bout it..
n keep asking me to see the doctors..
n also my musyuxxx
wat i said is!!!!!
coz i dun like doctors..
they keep blaming on me...
n juz give those fucking painkiller..
ded can make me feel sleepy..
i really hate it..
yeah..i've done it already when i was 13
rite now i won't do it..
coz i dun wanna waste my parents money at all..
juz think positive..
n fight it...
n having some fun wif my family..
goin to tasik...
n watsoever..
juz wanna fite it..

deds all i can do..

for my assignment..
i hope i can settle it..

juz go away from my life...