:(...huhuhuh so scare..

why?? tomorow gonna be our final exam...ny god i dun think i'm really3..ready 4 ded...especially...when i got my test result..i felt no confidence because of ded..oh my god..help me!!! sp scared..so scared more then i sit for SPM exam..i swear.. i'm gonna call my parents after 11..n ask them to pray for me..huhuhhuu..since last nite,i've already call my bestfrenzz..maya kucyg..miss her..wuawua.. mlaysia studies?? i juz read a lil bit of it..hurmm..watever it is juz remember dis la...brusaha,bru tawakal..


goOd luck my frenzzz!!!

may God always blessings us!!!

InsyaAllah..

The day that I’ve been waiting for….

I woke up by 8.30am..when iQa stiillll sleeping…me?? Busy preparing myself for the perfomnance.. I really can’t wait for that perfomnce…I was so excited..since dis is my 1^st time I went for acoustic pfmance,… I’ve been dreaming bout that long time ago.. by 9 somethnig I’ve got u80 bus.. I can’t sleep last nite…coz..arghhh…crying2…why u olwez cry efy??? Hurrmm..so I continue my dreamzz in da bus…by 10.45 I arrived at KL sentral…rush to get the lrt of coz..finally,I arrived at klcc… walked all alone…msk toy r us…alaa comelnye lampu ghost pumpkin tue…kn bgs mlm ptama aku da lampu tue..hehehe.den I went to the food court…mkn nsik ayam smbil mnghayati keindahn tsik klccc..the bangla keep staring at me..yela…coz I;m alone…itz ok la…itz not da ist time I’m alone.. the pfomnce will start by 12..so,pe lg…cri kino laaa…lepak22 kejap..den bru gerak..fuh…where is actually the red bungalow??keep searching 4 it..haaa..at last I found it…juz behind nasik kandar pelita…so lucky ‘ve already have da ticket..while waiting they prepared their stuff.. I juz waited outside..try to calm myself…oh my god.. tshet roliingg stonezzz… it reminds me to apexxx…so,I send him a msg..but he didn’t reply..its ok laaa…maybe he’s busy..or sleeeppp…maybe.if he reply my msg,I want him to be wif me 4 da prfmnce..but,it’s ok laa..coz if he see me at ded day…wat mluw joh..hahaha..i heard that the acoustic perfmnce will start by 1.30..so,I decide juz go upstairs…there is visual art exhibition there..oh my god!! The picture were so beautiful.. I love arts…suddenly,there is someone so familiar n I think I’ve seen him bfore..so,I go to him n…eh,dri uitm kn?? N den he said..a’ah..owh yeah…he’s from faculty music..hahaha..then I watched the screening show..it’s actually from uitm student…wua…creative yeah..one of the screening…hahaha really touch me n makes me cry..waaaa…mluwnya…its actually a story of single mother n her daughter..she lost her daughter after she slap her face..wat really sad story,,eventhough its so simple..den by 1.30 untillll 8…lyn acoustic la…besh sgt22.. luckily,I can sit in front..hahaha..the songs perfomce by them was so nice..i really love ded..n den for the br8..the moment n the theme for the day will be screeneddd upstairs..actually I also contribute for ded..so,just watch laa ded short video..apparently, my confession not there.i think that part when it is suddenly stuck was my confession..hahaha.but its ok la..mmandangkn dri sendiri xmrelakn pown..wua… actually during that time I keep my tears..so,I need to do something to get away from it..so,I decided to take a picture there..hahaha..posing3 wif ana rAfali..one of the most best acoustic singer in mlysia..hehehe..she’s so sweet n frenly..no wonder why she’s got a lot of admirer..same with her teacher aidit alfian..pmalu tp sweet..huhuhu..after that I’ve to rush..its already nite so I’e to go back.i planned to buy 2 shirt for me n m sister.sadly,,dh tutup…cdeynye..actually the pfmnce will over by 10..but I really have to go bck..wua..i walked alone by the tasik klcc..wanna know my other surprise for him?actually I wanna spend my time wif hi by the tsikk..mkn kek ssme..bgelak2..ssme..its all for ur bfdae syg…but u didn’t come!!!!!! U know how much u broke my heart???!!!! U promised me..u wanna come..but u didn’t ..i was so sad n just let my tears out..dun care if evryone around me keep staring at me as long as I can let it out..there is a lt more I’ve been planning to do wif u..i know ded u do hve a problem n I cant accept ur request,so ded u didn’t come to me…I think u r so cruel n like the guy I know before..n now I cant talk to u..i just really cant.but dun wory syggg.. watever it is.. I promised I’ll sing to u..by 29.10.08 at 12am..wait haa.. den I’ll be gone..dun wory I’ll give u back all of ur picture..n I’ll make u 2 cd..our favourite instrumental..n 1 more?? Juz wait n try to understand it k.wait k..

When all the lecturer at concorde hotell..me..??

Me….??? Hohooho..i didn’t plan it actually..after I read wani ardy blog.. I just decide to see this guy..to buy the ticket from him something somewhere in shah alam..but then I text to ain…. My roomate..ask her whether she’s goin to CM or not..n then amal text me..n ask me to go there wif them…apa lgg…ikot je la..hohohoh… after we arrived there I bought 2 tickets at THEY artstudio.. I was so hapy at that time..juz keep shouting..i’ve the ticket..i’ll be there,for the acoustic perfomnce wif him..hurmmm..there is a surprise for him actully,since his brfdae just around the corner…hehehe..cannot wait for that day.. hope he’ll come…jauh2 nie,dri shah alam ke kl..juz 4 da ticket..hahaha..mngada..ermm..for me bufday is the most important event that really should be celebr8..huehuehue..kay22.. its not da main topic laaa…n then while waitng for abg zul..to open his shop(ricecooker,where we can get the underground n independent bands cd’s n also casssette)..we went to the art exhibition,,oh my god..really love that!!!!!! Awesome!! Fantastic… !!! why?? Of coz la the paint n the potret..was so nice..guess wat.. fuh…cntik siot..n really touch my feelings..well,it was the paint from (pesakit mental).. wuhh…I really can feel their pain eventhough juz from the picture..n…so stupid la.. TERnanges..!!! olowhhh.. sensitif tlbey la pulak..poyo btol..hohoh..but,I really love that..huhuhuh..we’ve also got chance to draw something..so ape lg ??!!! amal!! Ko kn mcm budak22..hahaha..ain pown conteng2 laaa….besh siot..eheheh.. ermm.. by 5..we went to revolution schooll..since ain keepp mention his name..the vintage teacher..but actually he’s not exactly a teacher laaa..but I’m really proud of him..why?? bcoz he can explain,tell us straightly,..everything bout wat had happened to Malaysia before independent n after..by looking to his image,nobody wil believe he have that kind of knowledge..n now.. I really loves history…hehehe..its fahmi reza laa..ain really likes him..den before we went back… amal want to buy a present for her mom n dad..so,we walked around..n keep searching for it..amal asked me to choose a present for her dad…then,I asked her to buy that really cute lighter..it was green colour n there is a panda on it..n also this cool words.. no smoking,no life…hahaha…sje nk perly ayh dia laa…hehehe..den..we decide to go back ASAP …suddenly,I realized ded..i shoud give something to apekss..kwnku yg comel..patah blk..n ask the promoter whether is there anymore lighter same likes amal bought..n den she said..dah hbiz laaa..tnggall 1 jer yg td..den,I walked out without saying anything..cdey..!!! n guess wat?? Suddenly..ded sister called me..eh,ade lg la adk..yg nie bru last..ape lg..lompat la kat ctu.ain n amal juz keep laughing at me..hahaha..mcm bdk22 dpt lolipop..hehhe..hahaa..amal da bngang..tnggu bas lme gler..den finally by 8 something bru bas smpye..so,kteorg hve a nice dremzz jer dlm bas tue…so tired..den after I arrived at section 2..i decide to give the present to apexx there.coz I cant really see him at the faculty..after I gave it to him..

Wait for 1 hour n more!! For the 603..wua…manyak penat..tp hapy sgt22..ye la,2^nd time spend mse dgn ain n amal..love yea!! Heheh..n apexx..hope u’ll like it n take cre of it..maybe that was my first n last present for u..

GAMARJOBAT’S!!!!!! LOVE YOU…

Hahahaha…untill now I really can’t forget the jokes..wow!!! mmg besh gler… hahaha…thanks miss Saliza coz bring us there..i was so happy n reallly enjoy it…especially half of my classmatezzz enjoy it tooo…except Aj,joy,bpku,jaja,eden,winnieee.. wugi woo…not only our classs but also from the other classzzz…. Nk cter spnjng pjALANan pown pnjng sgt..but I really enjoy it laaa…it was held The actors Studio@Bangsar Shopping Centre..n I hope one day or the other day laa… I cann go there again wif my frenzzz or…hurmmmm…. Hope so..

Extraordinary , Euphonic, Experience

Well,ded is our motto for our language camp..oh my god,I love ded project..n at last everythings is perfect..hey joy,aj,hurul n athirah..we’ve done a great job?? Rite..e-camp..that is the name 4 our language camp..so cool…together with our design for the name tag n also for the booklettttt… so cute..so cool..guess who’s the designer…??? Hurmm. Of coz laaa…joy!!!! She’s really creative… so,of coz also the other team mate..luckily,there is no problem during the process..we can share our opinion n accept itt…thanks so much..hahahaha.. n also for our presentation..the funny is when we present our budget..RM100 only 4 our speakers??hahaha..hurm..a.j doing my part??!!! Its ok laaa..as long as all of us contribute for the project…n I’ve already satisfied with ded..n..n it was the 1st time we had nite claz..wif who??wif miss afni..she’s so cute laa.heheh..luckily she gave us comment ded can help us to improve our work..huhuhu.. I’ve been dreaming that if we all can make it reall..hahaha brangan…but maybe one day??!! Who knows??!!! Thanks frenzzz..congratulation.. wat a lucky nite..there is a bus that can bring us stright to mawar..Alhamdullilah..i was so tired,migrain n keep thinking bout my problem in da bus..lyn lgu..n I was crying at that time actually,I tried to hide it from everyone,coz I can see that myclazmate n also haris keep chating,talking2,laughing2.. n me?? Juz sit there alone silently n cry..but..i didn’t realize ded actually a.j notice bout it..he text me n keep asking wat happen??n I keep lying to him ded I’m alright..juz to make him stop worying bout me..sory yeah a.j..really sory..he gaves me some advice..thankss so much..4 being so caring to me..maira?? suddenly she comes next to me n give me a warm hug..hahhaha..she really makes me wanna cry more n more…mcm hurul ary tue la.. tharu pnya pasal…huehuehue..thanks frenzz.. love u all so much!!!

at last....

Huhuhu…dis week,errmm,,n also last week,wat a reallllly3..hactic week…I’ve so much asssssssignment n also tessttt..hahaha..we all got so tired n of course tension la jgak,,hohohohoh..n I admit ded all dis week I’ve having migrain…maybe every single day I took panadol..n ded is why,my hands sometimesss keep shaking..hahaha..plusss222..add22..together2,with the other problem ded really makes me feel soooo bad..n because of ded my emotion was not really in a gooood condition..hohoho..so stupid..i keep crying..especially when I feel likes my lovely lecturer hates me so muchhhh.. I dun know wat actually makes him hate me so bad..i notice it when he gave my result test..the way he gave me..fuuu…really makes me feel like I’m like a skunk in front of him..n wat I think??? He like a beast who really hates me when I fart to him..hahhaha..i admit that my result was not so good,but pls…dun act like that in front of ur student..if u wanna warn me for something or angry?? Juz be honest to me..dun act like ded…come on laa…efy222!!! Dah besar! Tp mnngade lg??!!! no laa..trasa joh..!!! hohoho..n wat other things ded really makes me feel like he hate me is..the way he replied my msg through his blog…wuaaa…cooolll beb… (IS IT….IS IT….KEPALA HOTAK HANG) waaa…. Cooolll beb,xde lecturer cooollll cam ney..lyn beb…hehhehehe…reallly love it laaa…hurmm.. I think my face look like ur XGF before?the one who dumb n dump u?? maybe laaa….that is my thought bout it..sound strange rite…hey…haziQQQ!!! Dun tell anyone ok,the day I keep talking nonsense bout it with you..nyway thankssss so much 4 being my tissue…hahhahaha…not forgetting my adk yg sg cOOOMell…hurul ain la xlaen n xbukan..hehehe.. u hug me when I wass crying at intec library..during pn .hamidah my sweet leturer class…thanks so much.. I’ll never forget that moment..n of course my other classmate..ded always cheer me up…love u all so much!!!...n by the way “me feliz,me vida” called me.. n listen to my problem..hurmm..thanks so much..

But,sory ya kwn222..da byk nyusahkn korank… nyway I really appreciate ded..huehuehue..ermm…so 4 the second test my lovely lecturer was not around.. I wonder where is him??? I wanna give something 2 him..hurmmm..likes mam izyany who quite frusted bcoz of me..i gave her present..but not for her laaa…for her baby…hehehehe..bkn nk bodek laaa k…ded is me…someone who frust or act weird in front of me, I’ll treat him or her like ded…yeah..ded is me..hahaha…by da way..dun worry,I’ll never hate u laa…dun wory k…BUT if u treat me BAD,I’ll TREAT u BAD more then u treat me so bad…like hutang darah,dibyr dgn darah…hahaha..hati busuk ney…but wat can I doo… ded is me..ok,ded is all…thankksss..

at last....

Huhuhu…dis week,errmm,,n also last week,wat a reallllly3..hactic week…I’ve so much asssssssignment n also tessttt..hahaha..we all got so tired n of course tension la jgak,,hohohohoh..n I admit ded all dis week I’ve having migrain…maybe every single day I took panadol..n ded is why,my hands sometimesss keep shaking..hahaha..plusss222..add22..together2,with the other problem ded really makes me feel soooo bad..n because of ded my emotion was not really in a gooood condition..hohoho..so stupid..i keep crying..especially when I feel likes my lovely lecturer hates me so muchhhh.. I dun know wat actually makes him hate me so bad..i notice it when he gave my result test..the way he gave me..fuuu…really makes me feel like I’m like a skunk in front of him..n wat I think??? He like a beast who really hates me when I fart to him..hahhaha..i admit that my result was not so good,but pls…dun act like that in front of ur student..if u wanna warn me for something or angry?? Juz be honest to me..dun act like ded…come on laa…efy222!!! Dah besar! Tp mnngade lg??!!! no laa..trasa joh..!!! hohoho..n wat other things ded really makes me feel like he hate me is..the way he replied my msg through his blog…wuaaa…cooolll beb… (IS IT….IS IT….KEPALA HOTAK HANG) waaa…. Cooolll beb,xde lecturer cooollll cam ney..lyn beb…hehhehehe…reallly love it laaa…hurmm.. I think my face look like ur XGF before?the one who dumb n dump u?? maybe laaa….that is my thought bout it..sound strange rite…hey…haziQQQ!!! Dun tell anyone ok,the day I keep talking nonsense bout it with you..nyway thankssss so much 4 being my tissue…hahhahaha…not forgetting my adk yg sg cOOOMell…hurul ain la xlaen n xbukan..hehehe.. u hug me when I wass crying at intec library..during pn .hamidah my sweet leturer class…thanks so much.. I’ll never forget that moment..n of course my other classmate..ded always cheer me up…love u all so much!!!...n by the way “me feliz,me vida” called me.. n listen to my problem..hurmm..thanks so much..

But,sory ya kwn222..da byk nyusahkn korank… nyway I really appreciate ded..huehuehue..ermm…so 4 the second test my lovely lecturer was not around.. I wonder where is him??? I wanna give something 2 him..hurmmm..likes mam izyany who quite frusted bcoz of me..i gave her present..but not for her laaa…for her baby…hehehehe..bkn nk bodek laaa k…ded is me…someone who frust or act weird in front of me, I’ll treat him or her like ded…yeah..ded is me..hahaha…by da way..dun worry,I’ll never hate u laa…dun wory k…BUT if u treat me BAD,I’ll TREAT u BAD more then u treat me so bad…like hutang darah,dibyr dgn darah…hahaha..hati busuk ney…but wat can I doo… ded is me..ok,ded is all…thankksss..

family poetry..

Family

Emptiness is here,
I can feel it all around,
A shallow depth within this soul,
no will to live is found.

Nights are days,
and days are nights,
the hours all blend to one,
Foundations of reality have left me now,
and gone.

Sustained by only instinct,
does my body take each breath,
With shattered hopes and broken dreams,
I die this living death.

My independence absolute,
my worthiness all gone,
I fight to hold reality,
and slowly soldier on.

With all that I can muster,
I seek strength, so hard to find,
What happened to the woman I knew,
who fell so far behind.

So beaten down and trodden,
disillusioned and so frail,
Once more she plays the ending,
in a somber haunting tale.

What things in life have I done wrong,
to suffer in this way,
Each time I stand,
start feeling strong,
my world starts to decay.

Round and round my head spins
as I try to make things clear,
Everything I try to grasp
will always disappear.

Once again I have to search
this heart I have inside,
All that I see left in there,
is foolishness and pride.

How can a little girl go on like this,
what secret goes unseen,
These wounds I bare will never heal,
this conscience never clean.

I close my eyes and inwardly,try hard to understand,
What lessons does life keep from me,
what scheme does fate have planned.

I try to see my future,
but the truth does not pretend,
Someway, soon, somehow, I know
this emptiness will end.

VvwhitetrashvV

what a very nice and meaningful poems for me..

hey3...

hey...lets join me! hahaha...before final exam..

release tension..hohoh..its fun laa..

soledad..

If only you could see the tears,
In the world you left behind,
If only you could heal my heart
Just one more time,
Even when I close my eyes
There’s an Image of your face,
And once again I come to realise,
You’re loss I can’t replace.

Soledad
It’s a keeping for the lonely,
Since the day that you were gone,
Why did you leave me,
Soledad
In my heart you were the only
And your memory lives on
Why did you live me
Soledad

Walking down the streets of nothingville
Where our love was young and free
Can’t believe just what an empty place
It has come to be,
I would give my life away,
If it could only be the same,
‘cause I can’t still the voice inside of me
That is calling out your name.

Time wiil never change the things you told me,
After all we’re meant to be,
Love will bring us back to you and me,
If only you could see


What a really meaningful this song for me.Soledad singing by a great singer from England that is Westlife.The way they sing this song really can touch my feelings and other peoples.They way they express each of the words from the lyrics really can make people cry,especially for the people who loss their own love.Even me can cry when I listen and understand this lyrics.It’s really touch me.From the beginnig of this song shows that how important the person that we love

Love is really important for human being.without love maybe we cannot survive.not just for our loves ones,but also for gods,parents,our familt,teachers and so on.if we do loss that love,I don’t think we can survive and live happily ever after.because of that in everyones heart should have that feelings and once you found your true love,learn and try to appreciate it.

From the first stanza of this songs tell us that he want the girl knows that he was so sad and how hard for him to forget everything about that girl.he realise that whatever it is,even when he closed his eyes,there is an image of her and nobody can replace her.

Whereas for the chorus,he keep asking why the girl leave him.he felt so lonely without the girl around.just that girl in his heart and the memory was always vivid in his mind.he really can’t forget about that girl.he has been so faithful to the girl.

For the third stanza,it tells about their own memory.he just can’t except that suddenly the memory loss just like that.he rather sacrifice himself if the memory with the girl can come back.his heart just keep calling for her name and want her to be around him again.

For the last stanza,it tell us that whatever it is even time will never change the words from her.he believes that love will bring them back to stay together forever,if the girl can realise that.

The writer of this lyrics are really creative,sensitive, and emotional.this songs shows that how sad and desperate he is.he really needs that women around him.he really needs the women loves.whatever it is their own memory was still vivid in his mind and never been forgotten.he really hopes that the person who he really loves will come back to him and they were meant together again.he don’t wanna find another girl because he for him only that girl can gives him those happiness.the girl are forever important for him.their loves are not an obssesion loves but true loves that they deserve to have..

Ps..appreciate your loves ones and no doubt to him/her if they can prove it to you.don’t even dumb them. lossing someone that we love was the most worst pain in our lives.

ba..mak...ampunkan efii...

Slm aidilfitri..

Mak.ba,nana,lala…maafkan efi sbb xbraya skaly..ba..maafkan efi sbb dah wat ba trasa dgn efi..efi xjwb pnggilan ba hri tue..efi bkn sngaja tamaw jwb pnggilan ba..lpaz teguran ba n mak hri tue watkn efi trasa sgt2..efi taw tue suma slh efi..lpz dri teguran mak n ba..efi jauhkan dri dari nset..msa kat uitm..efi tlalu sdeh dgn pa yg jd..tiap2 hri efi mnanges..ba..maafkan efi rya ney efi lngsung xpandng ba..tp jauh dlm aty efi..efi rindu sgt2 plok cium ba..ney la 1^st time efi xsambut rya dgn ba..maafkn efi..efi xley lg nak face to face dgn ba..maafkn efi sbb dah jd anak yg derhaka.. efi taw susah bg ba nk maafkn efi..

Mak..trima kasih byk3..mak pkai bju raya yg efi blikan utk mak…mak cantik sgt pkai bju tue..efi thru sgt22..mak pkai bju yg efi bg wpon mak mrh efi…mak..trima kasih sbb mak sdiakn tlekung utk efi pkai utk smayng ry…tp efi x p…maafkan efi…mak…dlm aty efi sbnaqnya nk sgt kta suma rya skaly..tp xksmpaian..disbbkan prangai efi..maFKAn efi…mak….cek windu sgt2 mak….btmbah kcewa bla xdpt mkn rendng mak…mak…maafkan cek…maafkn cek mak…cek rindu sgt2 mak…cek xleh hidup tnpa mak..ampunkan efi mak…ampunkan efi…cek nk mak…

Nana,lala maafkan efi sbb xrya skaly..jga la mak lek lok…efi xdpt nk jd anak yg bek..maafkn efi…wndu sgt nak raya skaly…. Raya ney rya..yg plng cdey skaly….tmbah bla yang pn tadak..efi sdey sgt…..

Ampunkan efi…efi sygggg sgt2 kt suma….

Mcm mana pon family efi…efi ttp syg family efi…

Wasalam…

I WANT MY FAMILY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =,{