I'm stuck on u...

wat a bloody plan??i mean wat he's actually trying to do rite now?everytime i tried hard to avoid him...he tried to pull me back n close to him.. i've already explain to him everything n for so many times i remind him ded watever it is..i'm not going to b urs...but he wouldnt listen to me..from his way,i knew it n i can feel ded he really loves me.. yeah...he really appreciate me eventhough sumtimes he hurts me..he can't live without me..wat a sweet moment when he gives me somethings ded i like..i dun think ded he did ded juz bcoz want me to feel sory 4 him..bcoz i can see from his way.. its like he juz want me to be more hapy like olwez..since like when i've a problem wif my dad..oh god..my dad hates him so bad..but wat bout me?i realize ded he already hurts my feelings..but i cant lie to myself... ded...ermmm...my heart still belong to him so tightly.. eventhough i tried to forget him...sounds stupid rite...yeah..i'm stupid...



ps, i love ded crazy man..

he is crazy..

n really,truly crazy

but i hope..
one day..he'll change..

i really love him..

wat a sad mlm rya n hary rya..huhuh

i.m so sad.. there is 3 reason why i'm so sad rite now..

ist.i've a problem wif my dad,i didnt talk to him since the 1st day i'm home.i knew ded i've already hurt his feelings.but i've already ask 4 a forgiveness from him last week when we had a meeting together. i know ded i made a big mistake.but pls dun do ded to me. i feel so bad n i juz wanna run away from here.i feel like he hates me so much.i didnt answer his call not bcoz i dun wanna talk to him.but after he tortured n warning me.. i tried to avoid myself to get along wif my nset.. n juz keep it in silent mode n put it away from me.i juz follow his order actually..but..wat happen now?i miss him...i miss my family..wat bout my hary rya? hua.... ;'(


2nd is... my brothers not around...celebrating dis rya without him for de 1st time.. owh,,,my god... i miss him so much...


3rd..no rendang for dis morning..since likes my moms busy doing another job.. my sisters n i .. busy cleaning out my grands house..so,we have no time for ded rendang.. only kweh cornflakes choch ahjer..huhuhuh...



WUA..............ISK....ISK......ISK.....SOB......SOB....SOB.............

can someone teach me how to respect the others?

oh my god!! i dun know how to respect the others,do i?wat do you guys think??i'm already break up wif my bf,ahhh...wat a peaceful life without him around me.. i miss him so much,of course..but its ok without him,sumtime i feel ded i need him around,but when i think bout wat he did to me..arghhh....we've been break up bcoz he said that i didnt respect him..when i didnt eat that stupid panadol..wat a stupid reason rite?i'm the one who sick,but he's the one who suffer n emo then me..oh my god,i cant stand that..to caring but can kill me..then,the worst thing is,he mocked my family...how could my bf,my brothers most clozefren,my neighbour..sum1 ded my parents really believe did that?? isn't cruel?? watever he did to me b4.i never said to him ded i hate him..but this time i hate him damn so bad bcoz of those fuckin words.. i hate him..see...my hearts already dirty bcoz of those shit...i love him so much b4...bcoz of dis,i 'm not going back to him...never...i cant 4give him..if he is only juz a fren n doesnt close to my family...mayb i can forgive him..but he's different..he knows everything bout my family..so.ded its hard for me to accept that..eventhough i hate him..but deeply in my heart i still love him..n no one can replace him rite now..i love him more then everything.. i hope he'll change his attitude even not for me..='(

missing u....

i miss u so much..i miss my brother damn so bad...he's not here..i can't imagine dis hari raya there is no him around us..he's now sumtin sumwhere in canada..i think toronto..i'm not sure..huahuahua... i miss him so much eventhough we're not to close,but when he's not around i really can feel that..i miss him..wat bout my parenzz.. i can that they r too worried bout him..they keep talking bout him when we sit together or on the phone.its ok..well.,wat bout his future wife..well,i think everyday she will cry and cry...oh my god,how hurt it is when someone that we love not around..??i think for me..its ok,maybe..if he's so annoying..but if he's so caring,of course i'll cry everyday when he stay far away from me.. ='(....lastly, i hope he'll be fine there..insyaAllah..