the holiday is over...

by dis nyte..
i'm going back to shah alam wif hurul..
hope everything will be fine..


wat am i doinng during all dis week..during da holiday..

well...
everyday i i'd suffering those headache..migrain..
so wat can i do????
sleep...eat..sleep...
online?? yeah...
wat bout my assignment??
i juz dun settle it yet..
especially the interview..
since like....
everybody's enjoying their holiday..
shit333!!!!
huhuhu..
i'm sure all of my frenzz already settled up their assignment..
actualy i i wanna visit u maya!!!
but i can't
coz of my migrain..so my parents said"no"!!!
sory maya...
but i really3 miss u...
huhuhu


actualy..
i juz keep hiding from my parents ded..
i still suffering dis migrain...
starts from when i was in standard 6..
untill now...
but my mother notice bout it..
n keep asking me to see the doctors..
n also my musyuxxx
wat i said is!!!!!
"no!!!!!"
why??!!!
coz i dun like doctors..
they keep blaming on me...
n juz give those fucking painkiller..
ded can make me feel sleepy..
i really hate it..
brainscan??
yeah..i've done it already when i was 13
so...
rite now i won't do it..
coz i dun wanna waste my parents money at all..
juz think positive..
n fight it...
n having some fun wif my family..
goin to tasik...
n watsoever..
juz wanna fite it..


deds all i can do..


for my assignment..
i hope i can settle it..
immediately!!!

headache...migrain!!!
juz go away from my life...

takdir cinta

Artist : Rossa
Lirik Lagu : Rossa - Takdir Cinta
Rossa - Takdir Cinta

ku tutup mataku
dari semua pandanganku
bila melihat matamu
kuyakin ada cinta ketulusan hati

yang mengalir lembut
pengusa alam
tolonglah pegangi aku
biar ku tak jatuh

pada sumur dosa yang terkutuk
dan menyesatkan cintaku
andaikan ku bisa
lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia

aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna
ku tak luput dari dosa
biarlah ku hidup seperti ini
takdir cinta harus begini

ada kau dan dia bukan ku yang mau
oh tuhan kuburlah hatiku

the pic...n the tears...

so sTupid to cry when i Saw dis pic!!!!

efii...npa lemah sgt??!!! npa bodo sgt....
still nanges sbb dia??!!!!
sdangkn efi hapy dgn owg len...
heeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~
efy...
ingat ney..
pa2 pown efy wat..ingat...rindu or watever..
or ur feelings to him..~~~~
ded paricular will never be urs again..
remember!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





i was so hapy as i arrived

from shAH alam..

at first i asked my family to spend our time
at tasik jitra..
den my moms said..

its already 6...
so ded we decided to have our
dinner at rainforest
our favorite port..

i was so tired..
after taking bath n solat..
i just stared at my laptop..
since like i promised with my musyuxxx..
by midnite we'll dating here..(ym)
i really dun know y..
at 1st..
i really can't online my myspace..
i've got no problem wif it of cozz..
but..
den...
i just fight it..
n
all out of sudden..
wat am doing is..
not as usuall..
i just view "this particular person" profile..
n...
when i saw ded pic..
suddenly..
the tears just flow out....
n i start to scream like crazy...
itz just happen suddenly.
n i keep asking to myself..
why should i cry for ded fucken pic???!!!
am i so stupid....
i just feeling more n more bad at ded time..
i'm having migrain before...
n after i saw ded pic..
itz getting worse n worse...
i can't do anything at ded time...
but juz keep crying...
i felt guilty to my musyuxxx..
coz i broke my promised to him..
i'm so sory....

n
to ded particular person...
i just commented on ur pic..
ded is
have a very truly happiness...


to my musyuxxx....

reallyy sory...

warghhhh...........!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! skt sgt333 kpala aku.........................



dtambah lg dgn bnda ney!!!!!!!!!!!!




sktnya mata tgk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

skt sgt!!!!!

skt.......................................



skt lg hati ney..............




ya ALLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!......

black n white fever...

12.50 a.m...
waiting here alone..
waiting for da flight...
suddenly i saw nik aziz just past in front of me..
wat is he doing here...
maybe he just come back from terengganu..
i'm hungry!!!!
but as usual..
i can't really eat..
NO APPETITE!!!!
huhuhuh~

i miss my frenzzz...
i miss da cls...
i wanna join da drama classs...
but wat can i do???
i have to go back..
to get da treatment..
for the viruse..
i dun wanna go home actually...
but my parents keep pushing me..
they tend too worry bout me...
i feel better den before..
but...
easily got tired...
n sumtimes...
i cant breath..
cough n flew
really tired n tired........
i've to go now..



ps..dear all my frenzzzz...


pls pray for me...


miss u all so much...

the daun kering....the inspiration

i just gonna right as simple as i can..
issh222..tp muzty panjang..hurmm..
but really meaningful to me..


last day
lala here..
went to faq first to check the list name..
still no there..
my musyuxx n me..
was so bengang laaa..
n my musyuxx wat muka KERING...
NGEEE..
DEN
we've been to pkns..
together wif my musyuxxx..
lala said..
"aku tngen nk bli bju2 kat cni..
tp dwet scolar xmsuk lg..
dah laa dwet KERING.."
den efy said..
"tapala bla2 nty mai laaa cni..kat shoping skali..
aku pn nga KEKERINGAN DWET..
aku nk bli bju kurung putih..
hadiah kt aku..ben10 kat husin"
tp dwet nga KERING..."
both of dem was so sad at ded time..
n keep walking around..
(sambil wat muka KERING)
hahaha
den,
lala said..
jom blk laaa..
dwet pown nga KERING..
i said ok laa..u should rest bfore u drive to kuantan..


den,
by 4 sumtin..
my sis sent me to pkns..
coz bfore i've to show her the direction
den..
after she left..
i was all alone at ded time..
i asked my musyuxx to come..
coz my sis keep worrying bout me..
den,
while waiting for him to come.
there's perfomance there..
not really interesting..
i dun know who are they(the artist)
accept ibnor reza coz they announced his name there..
wuaa..
so bored..
when they just
stand there and makes so joke..
"LAWAK KERING"
ded makes me feel like..
it better to have..
biskut KERING together wif some hot tea..
during ded rainy time..
but wat can i do..
n where can i get??
secret recipe??!!!
definately..not laaa..
den,
i just walk along the tasik ..
keep waiting for himm..
it was raining
but i really hope ded..
when he's here..
my shirt already "KERING"

when the rain stop for a while..
i decided to have a sit..
ey...buaian!!!!
ngeee..
so i just sit there n listen to my booboo..
suddenly..
two kids come to me..
buat muka KERING bole nanak buaian tue..
yeah..
i really hope ded my musyuxx can sit just beside me
n play together..
but he's late..
since like during ded time..
all couples around there keep staring at me..??
wuwuwwu..

den
i just walk n walk..
the rains come back..
i got wet!!!!
i start to feel so angry at ded time..
where is him..
yeah..i understand ded
its not his fault..
"jem pnye pasal laa"

huhuhuh
i waited him under the big tree..
n lots of daun KERING there..
n den he came
we listen to my booboo together..
i won't show my KERING face to him..
just keep hiding it..
den as usual..
merapu2..
oh my god..
ada pakcik nie plak..
jual bku doa..
bkn xskua..tp tkot..
nk bg dwet pn..
dah tngah KERING..
tp last33..tgk muka KERING dia..
bg je laa..
insyaALLAH..pasti ada hikmahnye kn..

den we walked together..
we sat under ded beutiful gazebo..
keep merepek33..
we talk about indie band..
pesawat,the padangs,ligthcraft..wat else?
ded have those funny name?
hahaah
i asked him if we have our own band..
wat would it be..
he keep merepek...

n lastly..
i said..

THE DAUN KERING!!!!!!!
since there is a lot of beutiful daun kering around us..
so ded he said..
a'ah..THE DAUN KERING..
our inspiration is..
air terjown yg xpnh dbukak spnjng kmey jln2 kat ctu..
gazebo yg cntik tue..
daun KERING yg bsepah tue..
bdk2 n pak cik yg wat muka KERING..
n saving yg dah KERING..

hahahaha


so sweet laa..
klo jd btol besh laaa..
cumel jaaa kn syg?
ngeeee.........

lala,me n my musyuxxxx...

oh my god..
staring from thursday..untill friday..
no class...but holiday..
i get so bored..
by friday..
i'm planning to vistit my frenzz..
she lives sumtin sumwhere in gombak..
since like i've nothing to do..

den..
iza called me..
she asked me to go for a movie..
so,i just follow dem n watch ded stupid movie..
yeah..
i'm so hapy at ded time..
since i was with mu musyuxxxx...
izza n kd..
aduh..xla buring sgt..
suddenly..
i just got msg from my sister
after her class she'll come to kl.
den i said..
ok la..
we met by nite..
n we've went together to gombak..
where actually we have our nap??
hahha..
of coz laaa...kna sludupp..
pnjat pgar pkai bju kurung..
ok la tue..

den..
the 2nd day..
we've been to maidin subang..
by nite..gombak again..

oh my god..
dis would a very scary experience i think..
by 1am sumtin..
on our way to shah alm.
there's 4 excident happen along the highway..
n 1 of demm..
the scariest 1..
when my sis almost hit that boy..
itz not my sis fault of course..
there is another car hit them..
n the boy fall in front of us..
i was so surprised at ded time..
i couldn't breath..
i called my moms but she did'nt answer it..
n i called my musyuxx..
n tell him bout dis..
i was so glad ded there is nothing happen to us..
eventhough at first..
all the mat rempit try to blame us...


nyway from dis to days..
i'm so hapy ..
cozz i can have a baby in my hands..
ded is farah..
iza's cousin?? ithink..
n my sis friends baby..
i was so hapy..

but..
bengang gla222 laaa.
3 kali g faq..
xde pn kputusan klas bru..
buang msa btol laa...

huhuhuh
den,
i really hope ded..there is no such thing happenn
to me or to the people ded i love..
insya-ALLAh