i wanna watch dis!!!

Bella Swan has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother re-marries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen, a boy unlike any she's ever met. Edward is a vampire, but he doesn't have fangs and his family is unique in that they choose not to drink human blood. Intelligent and witty, Edward sees straight into Bella's soul. Soon, they are swept up in a passionate, thrilling and unorthodox romance. To Edward, Bella is what he has waited 90 years for -- a soul mate. But the closer they get, the more Edward must struggle to resist the primal pull of her scent, which could send him into an uncontrollable frenzy. But what will Edward & Bella do when a clan of new vampires -- James, Laurent and Victoria -- come to town and threaten to disrupt their way of life?

huhuhuhhu^_^

kamu dan kamu by agnes monica

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Aku punya teman
Teman sepermainan
Dimana ada dia selalu ada aku

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Dan juga baik hati
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Untuk membantuku

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well..ada hikmah di sbalik kejadian itu..

errmmm
last nite..
i'm busying talking to da phone..
owh,yeah
i'm so hapy at da time..
i just on my maxis number
n i've a lot of miscol n msg..
so i decide to call them back...
i used my celcom number..
i called hakim,sayoq,alif,n
msg wif ariel..
they said that i'm proud riite now..
n they miss me??!!!!
hahahaha..
actually i also miss dem.
yeah..they all are such very nice frenzz to me..
itz ok,we keep merepek33..
hahaha
peasanan yg sama dri mreka?!
jaga pipi tombam mu!!!
hahaha



then,
i realze ded suddenly my sis cry.
yeah,as usual..
at our restaurant at ded time..
i just go n ask her wat hapen?
n den she said
ded..
efy,ku rs xcdap aty...
aku rsa sgt22..
den i just calm her down
n keep askiing him to relax..'
by 12.00
we decided to go home..
she did'n talk to me at all
n i feel sumtin strange..
her baby dun wanna stay near at her..
she just drive straight
n i ask her to stop..
she said"kaki aku kebas.."
den i called faizz..
her.....
he drive us home..
i called my moms
my sis n my bro..
they come to the car..
as my moms recite some doa to her..
n suddenly..
she shout n shout..
she lose her control..
i thinks she's hysteria..
n at ded i'm just take care of her baby..
everyone of us really panic..
n after everything is under control..
i just let her sleep..
yeahh..of cozz.
she's fainted already..


den,
today,
i woke up so late..
i was so tired..
last nigtht..
i went out to ct plaza.
hahaha..
teman ariel bli bju!!
bls jasa smalam dtg lepak kat kdai aku..
nice designs..
ariel...i've already change u!!!
hahaha

den,
by night after having dinner
my dad ask us to tesco.
shoPpING!!! ShopIng22
n i realized ded..
i was so hapy at dedz time.
yeah,
i've already"ok"
wif my dad..
i'm glad ded..

den,
he asked me to make him mushroom soup..
my sis goreng keropok..
n..
we had our supper together..
i was so happy at ded time..
then,
i called amal..
yeah..
i dun wan her to waste her credit
so i just called her..


as usual..
online!!!
ym wif.....




sleapas kejadian tue..
aku kmbali pda kluargaku..
ada hikmah di sblik kjadian itu..

erkk..
hikmah?
my sis name..
da victim..
hahaha

nobody's home... by avril lavigne..

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah

oh my god!!! i can't breath!

today...
am i under a curse??
or wat....

hey...y r u keep searching 4 me...
i told u ded i hate u...
y don't u understand ded...
since morning he keep messaging me...
keep asking me...
wat is his fault??
n i?'
keep asking him to realize it by himself..


n...
finally..
he come to me..
after i didn't answer his call..
after my sis telling him the truth..
he asked me to make him ''milo ais''
as usual..
but i just ignored it..
he keep calling my name..
n i think i juz make him like a ''tunggul''
yeah.. i know ded..
i'm such a cruel..
but wat can i do??
he hurt me...


then,
he just go away n ask me to answer his call..
i didn't..
but,
1 message received,
that explain the reason y he.........
n i was so surprise...
i just told him...
that it was too late...
he also told me that he's going to die..
one day....
he do have brain tumor..??

i'm not sure wheather its true or not..

but the reality is.

he do have schizophernia n pnuemothorax

yeah,its true..

sometimes he had vommit

fainted...

my godd...

my god i really can't breath at ded time.....


suddenly,
i told him ded i've some1 else
coz of wat he did to me...
then ,
he said...
[efi..pian terlalu sygkan efi..pian terlalu ikhlas cintakan efi...knapa efi buat mcm nie?
begitu mudah efi brubah ati..begitu mudah efi mainkan pian..knapa pian?slama nie pian xpnah duakan efi walaupun kta salu bgduh,pian xpnh bniat untuk cri pmpun len walaupun kta salu bmasalah..pian terlalu sygkan efi..knapa efi?efi terlalu mudah jatuh ati.....pian sumpah pian xkn jatuh ati kat pmpuan len,tp ini balasanya...??efi buat sma mcm xgf pian buat kat pian,xhairan la kalo 1 hari nnty rumah tngga efi goyah sbb dari skrg efi dah tnjuk perangai nie..n ..............lots of more words...

at ded time i feel like..
i can't do anything..
my hands shaking..
i couldnt stop my tears from falling down..
its not coz i'm easily believe him..
but,
when he come to me..
i really can see his eyes..
ded he miss me..
he needs me..
he loves me..
he don't show it to me..
but i really can see ded..

i just tell him,
ded pls hate me..
i dun care..
coz i hate u too.
rite now my heart is empty..
i need space
i'm lost..
my love belong to who?
skunk?
naruto?ded ask me wheather
he still have a chance?
u sygg.
me feliz,me vida?
i dun know..
i'm lost..
i felt guilty to everyone around me..
if u guys wanna kill me?
den just do it..
coz i feel so empty rite now..
i do have family n frenzzzz.

but,
i can't fight the guilty..
the mistakes ded i did.
i hurt guys feeling...
n
not only ded..
coz of me..
my bestfrenzzz.
lost his gf
his gf ded much n more better than i am.
wat can i do rite now?

cry...
i'm tired...
my eyes couldnt stop for ded...
n my feelings?
i dun know..
i just need space.....


guys.....
pls.....
give me a space..
so ded i can breath again....
i'm not selfish..
but,
i really need ded..


bubbly skunk...
n
naruto
really sorry
forgive me.
thanks so much...

me feliz me vida..
maafkan efi......

treat u bad is better den giving u hope...

actually deeply in my heart,

i won't do ded.

but,

u really make me dissapointed..

so sorry..

who should be blame if sumtin happen to..

shit!
i love cigarrates!
i love dis ice!
i love sex!
i love enigma!
i love jack daniels!
i love doing all dis best damn thing!


but is it her own desire when she get involved in that kind of thing?1

yeah...
1st of all...
of coz when she've low knowledge of islam
n she's didnt practice it??!
of coz ded is the main reason y she easily get involve with it rite......


but...
actually the other common thing that
coz the girl get involved wif that..
is....
when she LOST HER PARENTS ATTENTION
when her PARENTS KEEP SAYING A BAD THING BOUT HER..
EVEN FOR NOW.....OR FOR THE FUTURE...


1st situation
mak:hg kalo dk wat prangai pnyegan mcm ney...smpye bla pown xkn dpt lg baik2..!!!!!!
Girl:mak,cek cuma kata SAT ja...bkn tamaw buat..
mak:tgk la nty hg keja mna pown ownk halau hg!!!!
girl:keep cryinggg...


it happen when the mother ask her to do something..
n she ask her mother to wait for a while..
but the mother keep angry to her..
quarrellings at her..
is it shows ded the girl is ''ANAK DERHAKA"
is she deserve for that kinds of ''SUMPAHAN''??
but at the same time she do..
respect her momss..
she do wat her mother ask...
she just stay silence when the mother keep saying ded..
even everything wat her mother said hurt her so bad..
it maybe will affect her future..
maybe wat her mother said would be true..
she was so scared coz of ded..
should she said ded her mother such a cruel person...??
or just accept wat her mother saidd.
n accept it even it happen in da future...


but,
somehow..
she's only a teenager...
she NEEDS ATTENTION...
she NEEDS LOVE..
she NEEDS FORGIVENESS..
she NEEDS CHANCE....
n she HATES ''SUMPAHAN''

by ded time..
when it become worst day by day...
no chance for her...
even small matter can create situation...
n her mother keep say a bad words to her...
wat actually will happen to her?1


is she going to kill herself?!
not yet...of cozz..

but..
she'll tend to ruin her own life.
coz wat?
coz she scared wat her mother said will come true in da future?
she have lost her own confidence to continue her life..
she really think ded she'll never achieve her dreamzzz..
so she rather ruin her life rite now....


starts wif cigar..
she tends
to try the drugs..
to have sexx..
to drinks alcohol..
n many more...


who' s da most important person in her life during ded times..
FRENZZZZZZ of course......
whenever...wherever it is..
frenzz always be there for her..
deds why..
she'll always follow her friends...
follow their steps...
n be like them...
if he bf more n more care bout her
compare to her family..
of coz she'll give everythings to her bf.

n.....



wat will happen to her future???!!!!



for me..
if i lose my family..
its like i lose my own life..
my future..
i have nothing in my life..
no more true happiness.
no more bright life..
JUZ FULL OF SADNESS..EMPTINESS..
N

SIN!!

i hope i could be strong watever it is..
i hope there is no such thing in my life..
i hope i can be patience..
got da strenght..da confidence..
to continue my life as
a HUMAN in daa world..
moms word always come true..
but..
OH my god..
dun let it happen..
forgive me..
forgive my moms..
forgive themm.
forgive us..

moms pray for..
Hidayah from Allah S.W.T
bright future...
happiness..



i need ded....

thanksss..

when love change to hatred..frenz change to love..n besfren is actually in love wif u..

i love u... i love u damn so bad...n i love u more then everything...crazy in love wif u...really love uu.


but nowww..
i hate u!!!!! u r da one who makes me hate u...
i hate n hate u..
cheh....bole dtg kdai den buang rantai yg aku bg?!
shit ahhh... buang la dlm pewot BABI kalo da xbmakna!!
mency dia..
xhargai aku...



n suddenly....
unfortunately..
without realising that..
skunk n hamster are in a relationship?!
are they really in love?!
yeah...they use to spend their time together all dis time..
n they are reallly like a couple..
so sweetttt.
skunk tend to miss hamster.so do hamster?!!!
of course she does..
but..
alll dis way.
she really can't confess anything to the skunk..
coz she's still confuse..
scare...doubt..
hamster always said to herself..
will i find my true love?!!
is it my true love?!
should i still believe in love?!
or i rather take the risks.
yeah...actually she always doubt n doubt
about love..
n skunk?!!!
plsss...don't confess to me..anything!!
i dun wanna live uu..
n i dun wanna lose u..
so..plz don't..
i do leave the guys who confess their feeling to me..
coz i dun wanna hurt them anymore..
when i can't accept them..
its complicated for me..
skunk... if u really love me..
n ureally ready to be in love me..
n u seriously love me..
then confess it to me..
but,if u still not sure bout ded..
n u might have some1 else in ur mind+heart
pls don't..
give me some time..
n i also will give u the chance to think bout it..
dun wory..
if u have fall in love wif some1 else
i'll accept it.
AS LONG AS U'LL BE HAPY,THEN I'LL BE FINE..
that is wat i always said to my lovess.
soo think bout it..
hamster!!!!
wats ur feelings towards the skunk?!
hamster said..
let it be a secret..
should be like that..
ok..wat bout u skunk?
pls don't CONFESS anything
if u do..then u're actually waiting for her reply?
juz keep waiting if dare to.
coz she'll not telling the truth.
thanks skunks!!!

my bez fren in love wif me?!!
cherry..actualy i...n i tried so hard to fight it but i can't..
i do have 2 gf..
but my feelings to u was so strong..
i really love u..
n i dun wanaa lose u..
its been a long time
i actually in love wif u..
keep jealousy when i saw u wif him
but wat can i do?!
u're my bestfrenzz..
n at da same time..
i do love yo..
said naruto to cherryy..


wat bout u cherry?!!!
wat!!!!!
my godd..
i really cant believe it..
how came it happen again to me?!
oh my god...
rite now i feel so guilty...
so guilty to himm
n also his gf..
he was so nice to me..
n sometimes he lend me his ears..
he do listen my problems n wipe my tears,
but wat i've already done to him?!!
i was actually hurting him..
y am i so cruel...
its hard for me to accept it..
yeah...coz of me..
he do have problems wif his exam..
n also his gf..
naruto!!!
pls forgive me..
yeah..last day we met..
we promised that to stay as a frenz forever
n i'll never leave him like
i did to others guys who confess their feelings to me..
safety pin n cigaret.
thanks..
i hope u'll find another girl that is much n more
better then me..
insyaAllah..


suffian!!!! get out from my mind laaaa!!!! heeee...

Cannot wait the day I’ll be back to shah alam…

Its not coz of I dun miss my family…of coz laa…I miz them a lot…but wat can I feel is when I was at home??? Not happineesss???!!!! I reallly wanna live in a reallly peaceful wif them…but wat can I doooo???itz like there is all around me was demon?? That keep disturbing my family…moms!! Dad!!! Could u plz stop quarelling to each other…itz reallly mess me up…mama(my sis)??!!! Bleh Dak stop masam2 muka…bebai2..,lemas laaa aku….lemas sgt….bleh dak dlm satu aty tue kta idup aman ka…n masing2 tadak yg duk cri pasal…neyh nth papa lg….semak taw dakkkk….mluw kat owank…(efi….mak pnatlaaa..))) (ermmm.taw pn mak pnt,bla la keadaan family kta nk btol??,nth2 lpaz slh sorank dri kta mati kowt?) tiap2 ary da ja msalah….mak,ba cri pasal lg dgn cek….aduh….bla laaaa aku akn idup tenang ney….when my moms ok jer…my sis n my dad plak…heeeee….sumpah RIMAS!!!!!!!!!!! Dk masam muka,ckp bukan2222….lemas gla laaaaaa…………………………………….!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

U know wat I juz act like I didn’t feel anything in front of them….but actually behind them I think a lot n too much….. juz smile n laugh….juz keep hiding in kept inside my heart..if one day everything is changing….how hapy n glad I am at that time….

sWeet VaCation..Sweet mEmory...

Langkawi???

Hahahaha…itz a very a nice place for me….especially to relax my mind laaa… hahaha…. I juz come back from the vacation…I’ve been there wif hurul…kanak2 ribena tue n her sis….hahaha…hve our nyte at perdana beach resort for two nyte….i think the apartment quite creepy n scary but itz ok laaa…I reallly njoy it..especially when I jump into the swimming poooollll…hahaha…then we continue our journey at telaga 7…n next is….explore some of the beach around langkawi…..not forgetting shopping…of coz laaa…part of our main activity laaa…wua….byknye choc yg dbli…huehuehue… ermmm..wat da hurt de most is when we’ve been to cable car for twice…tp xleh nek pon….wua…..sgt cdeh…………kcewanya….ermmm…..xpe la…maybe ade hikmahnye…huehue..itz ok laaa…den kteorg men22 dgr ular,kancil,n watsoever…hahaha…at least I stilll njoy there n reallly think that I dun wanna come back…..juz wanna stay far n far away from the others…..love hiding myself n being alone…much beter be like ded then make people dissapointed coz of me…coz i reallly realize ded I olwez make the others sad coz of me…hua..dah2….ahaks…. I just ate n ate n ate when i was there…n brendam jer laaa…huhuhu….hurul…akk ana…thanks bbbyk taw…huehuehue…tharunye…thanks a loooootttt.!!!!!! Hope I’ll have another vacation…hehehe

langkawi?